The Life of a Self-Harmer. A Liam Payne fanfic

WARNING: sometimes reading stories like this can trigger the erge to self harm and if you think you will be triggered i ask that you please do not read this. This story will also include anorexia and bulemia.

Prolouge:

There it was sitting there. I cried. Do I really want to do this? Maybe. No, I dont. Im just not in a good mood.

"Fuck that grab it." said my inner thoughts. Well, maybe its more than that, you've been sad for a while Alexis. No, its only been a month. Not that long. Its just a phase, Nothing more than that. I cant ruin my perfect skin. I promised I wouldnt. I promised I wouldnt ruin

my beautiful skn.

"Well, sometimes promises are meant to be broken." STOP TALKING TO ME! I was getting mad at myself.

"DO IT, DO IT, DO IT." my inner voice was chanting telling me I should. I cant. But what if I do do it.

I'll be judged.

People will make fun of me.

They'll see my wrists and.

I started to bawl my eyes. I cant handle this. I rabbed the razor to my skin and cut. Im not going to lie. It felt nice. No pain. Nothing.. I kept slicing my skin open and kept going. I finally stopped. I felt better that I did it. I cleaned myself up and went downstairs for dinner.

"Babe anything bothering you." I nodded my head no. "Are you sure?" my mother was always so caring.

"Yeah, Im sure." the rest of dinner was quiet. I cleaned up my plate and went to bed.

I woke up the next morning to my alarm I dreaded the fact of having to go to school. I wa bullied. My mom still didnt know. I plan to keep it that way. I got dressed and ate an apple for breakfast. I waited for my mom to get ready to bring me to school. She finally came down and dropped me off at school.

I walked into the school with laughs coming around all over the place.

"Look at her shes so fat." Ive been getting that a lot latley. I walked into the bathroom and went into the stall. i got onto my knees and stuck my fingure down my throat. The contents of my stomach started to come up my throat. I kept doing it until I felt nothing left in my stomach. I washed my hands and went to my first class math. I sat in my seat in the back of the class. I wrote down the notes on the board and listened to my teacher talk. What seems like forever class ended.

"Alexis, will you please come here?" I walked to her desk.

"Yes?"

"Where weren't you in homeroom?" Did I forget to metion shes my homeroom teacher? Well, If I did. Shes my homeroom teacher.

"The bathroom." I said quite blantenty.

"Why? The Whole time?"

"Yeah I was."

"Why?"

"Certian reasons."

"Like....?"

"Nothing, and Im going to be late for my class." I grabbed my things and left for my english class. The day slowly dragged on and on. I go to lunch and sat by myself. A kid walked up and sat next to me. I was confused.

"Hi, my names uhh Liam. Im kinda new here." I swalowed my food and answered him

"Hi, my names Alexis." We talked until lunch was over and we both had the same science class.

We walked into science and Mrs.Malowsah put Liam next to me. We were assigned a project with our lab partners. It finally was the end of class and I asked Liam if her wanted to come over my house to work on the project. We waited for my mom to pick us up and we got in the car and went to my house.

"Mom, this is Liam and Liam this is my mom Avery."

"Its nice to meet you Liam."

"You too." The rest of the car ride was silent. We arrived at my house and went into my room. We got working on our project until it was dinner. We ate dinner and Liam had to go home. My mom drove him home. My mom came back home and asked me what he was doing here and I said home work. I went up to my bathroom and puked up my dinner once I finished I kind of wanted to cut. So it did. No pain just like yesterday. I went in to my rom and crawled into my bed for some sleep.

AN: okay so new fanfic. Liam will be the only one of the boys for the next few chapters so yeha. DID YOU GUYS SEE STORY OF MY LIFE. OHHH MY GAWDDDDDD GAHHHH. SO YEAH. I have homework to do. Gerrrrr. Stupid math. Sorry for any misspelled words im on the computer not my phone.

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