The Life of a Self-Harmer. A Liam Payne fanfic

Sticks and Stones

Two months later

I'm broken. I can feel it. I'm slowly dying on the inside. I slice my arms up almost every night. it's hard. I was once so happy, now well I'm not. I was once full of life, now I'm a dull as I can be. and well Liam he asks me why I'm so quiet. I don't tell him because he'll judge me like everyone else I the world. society it's an ugly thing. it judges you with every move you do, everything you say, how you act.

It's funny thing. When you think you have it all right, something goes wrong. But that's life right? you can't always have what you want. there's no fairy tale ending where you find prince charming. it's not like that. it's far from it. it's like the horror story. it's scary not happy. nothings right. the man of your dreams isn't whispering sweet nothings in you ear. instead your getting hurt by the closest to you.

Today it was hard. I threw up my breakfast. as I was throwing my food up I hear a slight knock on the door
"Sweetheart? are you okay?" I sat up at whipped off my mouth I got up and opened the door. my mom came in.
"Are you okay? you've been throwing up an awful lot lately."
"Yeah. I'm sure."
"If you don't mind me asking. are you pregnant?"
"Mom! what? NO!"
"Okay, I'm having you stay home from school then." thank the heavens lord 🙏

My mom sent me to my room to sleep. little did she know that's not what I was doing. I sat on my bathroom floor cutting. each slice representing a different pain. I heard another knock on the door. I panicked. the door slowly opened. it was my mom.

"Alexis! why?" I just cried. "why are you harming yourself." my said said with tear brimming in her eyes.
"I'm not happy." I said chocking on my tears.
"Why aren't you happy?"
"I get Bullied at school. I get called fat. and ugly. I'm not wanted."
"Sweetie. your not fat, your gorgeous. and Alexis if you left I would die."
"I'm not happy."
"I know your not. I get that. There is no reason for that. talk to someone. me, your father, or Liam. please talk to someone."
My mom was now in tears.
"I'm sorry mom. I'm stupid. I'm not wanted I get it."
"Alexis, I'm always here for you. i love you know let's get you cleaned up." my mom clean my fresh wounds. my told me I should tell Liam so I texted him telling him to meet me at my house after school.


*after school*

Liam was sitting in my family room. just me and Liam.
"So ummm, what's up."
"Trust me a lot is up. how do I put this but umm. But i uh cut." the room went silent. h just starred at my wrists.
"Why?" his voice broke.
"Because I'm not happy."
"Ohh" It went silent again. "I want to help you." I looked at him with caring eyes. "I'm going to help you get through this."


" Liam, It's challenging to comprehend the thought of my life slipping through my fingers like picking up dry sand at the beach. Finding my depression taking a big part In my life as the day pass. I feel like dark clouds are over my head constantly and I can't do anything about it. It would take a lot of time to make me better. I don't want to wast your time."
"It's not wasting time if I'm saving a life.w

Life's is too much. it's a battle against my self. I either win or die trying in the end.

A:N Okay so chapter two!!!!! I really like this chapter credits to my friend Alli for coming up with the dry sand thingy. love ya babes! ❤️❤️❤️


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