The Life of a Self-Harmer. A Liam Payne fanfic

Out of luck and into a new luck.

Quick authors note listen to the song when * shows up. I love echo smith a lot and this song fit the mood

I vow to stop trying at every thing. I vow to give up. I vow to one day to end it all.

Alexis' POV

I decided enough is enough. I was talking to Liam. his story broke my heart. he was viewed different in my head. viewed as society would treat him different now that his secrets out. he's going to get made fun of and I wouldn't be able to handle that. my anxiety was sky rocketing. my breathing was all over the place. I was over this. I can't handle it. I walked over to the sink in my bathroom. I gave up and grabbed the thing that had ruined my life. I thought about it and placed the blade to my wrist. not pressing down but enough to feel the cold metal up against my skin.i pressed down. I kept pressing harder. I did this quit a few more times watching the crimson color I love so much fall off of my arm and onto the white tile in my bathroom. I realized that my cuts were going to new stitches. confused I called liam. it rang a few times.

"Liam, I fucked up big time." I said through the phone with a quiet voice and crying a little.

"What do you mean you fucked up. you're scaring me, I'm coming over now." he said and I could hear him grab a set of keys and a door slam. "I love you Lexis, I'll be there soon hold on." he hung up the phone and my cuts kept bleeding a lot. my mind well, it was racing at a fast pace. I was scared. I heard a door open.

"ALEXIS!?" I sobbed quietly to myself I heard running up the steps and I saw my bathroom door opened. Liam ran to me and kneeled down ad grabbed y wrist. I saw a tear slip and heard him mumble something I couldnt exactly make up as what he had said.

"Baby youre going to need stitches." He picked me up in his arms and brought me to his car and we left to go to he hospital. it was quiet except for my tears. Liam rubbed my hand I used y other hand to hold the fabric to my wrist to hold the blood. he pulled into the hospital entrance. we got out the car and he went to the front desk and told them how I needed stitches. We were pulled into a room.

"Hi Alexis..? Can you tell me what exactly happened?" I nodded slowly.

"I uhh was using the act of self harm and uhh cut to deep." I said quietly. he nodded and got whatever they use to stitch you up. and he gave me six stitches in four of my cuts and seven in two of them. he put gauze on them and said I was good to go.

Liam's POV

I saw the look of disappointment on her face. it hurt me. I decided that I would change her day. I started driving to the beach. I knew it was her favorite place. we drove in silence. *** I pulled up to the beach and she smiled. she leaned over and smiled and kissed me. I got out of the car running to her side of the car before she could get out I opened her door and intertwined our hands and we walked to the beach. we walked to the water. our feet being engulfed in the wet sand. The only sound was the waves crashing down on the shore. barely hitting out feet.

Peaceful

The sun was barely setting, due to it ring late in the day. I picked Alexis up bridal style and put her in the dry side sand. I got in top of her and kissed her. I mumbled 'I love you' on her lips I felt her smile. I turned her awful day in to a day that had one of the best endings and that was my goal.

an/ hope you guys liked it kinda cute and idk I liked it