Is it wrong? - An OsoChoro Fanfic

It hurt.

[Todomatsu's POV]

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I walked home that night with Jyushimatsu. We had both gone out on a long walk, talking about our feelings and reactions to this entire catastrophe. Of course I was sad by Choromatsu's actions but I couldn't deny the fact that I was also completely outraged. What he did, it hurt me and I knew it had hurt the rest of us as well. I talked with Jyushi for a while and we then sat down at Chibita's oden stand.

"Oi, idjits. Just the two of you here today eh?"

"Chibita.." I started before Jyushimatsu cut me off.

"Can we talk with you..about something?" He asked him. Chibita looked at us confused.

"Eh..? Well sure what's up?"

We told him everything, Jyushimatsu and I. We told him what Choromatsu had done. He was dumbfounded, not really knowing what to say.

"Dammit..dammit! That idjit..How are you all..y'know handling that?"

I took a bite out of a stick of oden.
"Well not too well I mean. Jyushimatsu has been..been.." I looked over at him and saw him crying. Bawling even. As hard as he did way back when he fell in love. That hurt, it really did. My heart felt as if it had just been impaled.

"I..I see.." He stammered awkwardly.

"Look you idjits..Sure one of you has moved on but the rest of you can stay in one piece right?"

"I..I sure hope so..that's what we're all really worried about." I told Chibita.

"I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE TO LEAVE!" Jyushimatsu cried out. I rubbed his back gently to comfort him. Tears started to fall down my cheeks as well.

"God damn it..tonight's meal is on the house you two." Chibita told us as he gave us both another dish of fresh oden. We continued to talk and vent to him for a few hours. By the end of it he told us to try to stay strong together in whatever way we could. It felt nice talking about it, getting it all off my chest. Jyushimatsu still wasn't smiling. All day he had been practically emotionless. This entire thing was such a mess, I wanted it all to be over.

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"Hey guys! We're home!" I shouted as Jyushi and I walked inside. I saw Ichimatsu and Karamatsu both munching on some chips. Jyushimatsu joined in with them and snuggled up close to Ichi. I sighed and sat down with them.

"So..where's Oso-" I started before I was cut off.

"He's upstairs. We tried talking to him earlier. But he's..not really being himself." Ichimatsu told me and crunched a chip between his teeth.

"E-Eh what?" Jyushimatsu asked worriedly.

"Go see for yourself." Karamatsu said to us. I looked at Jyushimatsu who had sweat rolling down the side of his face.

"I'll go talk to him." I said and stood up.

"Alright. Good luck Totty." Ichimatsu said as his voice cracked. Walking out of the room I carefully trudged up the stairs. This wasn't good, not at all. The entire vibe here had changed. Nothing felt right anymore.

Opening the door I saw Osomatsu in the corner of the room. The lights were off. I could hear faint cries.

"Nii-san..?"

I stepped in. He immediately stood up and turned around. Flicking on the lights I saw his face red, streamed with tears. He hide his hands over his eyes as I rushed over to comfort him.

"Osomatsu..please talk to me.."

"I CAN'T..you won't understand.." He snapped back at me.

"We're all torn up by this it's not just you! Why aren't you trying to help the rest of us through this like a good eldest brother would?! None of us know what to do now!"

He didn't say anything.

"You aren't being here for me or for any of us! You seriously think just by locking yourself up here and being on your own you'll be alright?! We're here for you please just talk to us!"

Still, only silence.

"Why are you acting like this?! We need you nii-san! We all do, so what if we don't have Choromatsu. We don't need him! At least there's the rest of-

"SHUT IT TODOMATSU!" He screamed and kicked me hard in the stomach. I fell backwards against my head.

"O-Osomatsu.." I stuttered as I held my head in pain.

He approached me with his fists clenched. I could see tears starting to fall from his cheeks.

"I..well..I really cared about Choro..y'know?" He uttered.

"We all did..he's our brother after all.."

"NO. Not..not like that I mean.." More tears began to fall.

"Todomatsu." He spoke up in a shaky voice.

"What.."

"Is it wrong..to be in love with your own brother."