Is it wrong? - An OsoChoro Fanfic

You did this.

[ Choromatsu's POV ]

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Days pass quickly, one by one. Time keeps moving, slowly but surely. But what does it matter. It was just another day at the office. Working, waiting to get home to see my beautiful girlfriend, Sayuri. Family? What family? I no longer had a family to return to, to show my face to ever again. I packed up my things and started to head back to my apartment after a long day. The apartment I had been living in for little over a month now. About sixty days actually. Funny how much time flies. Sayuri would be home late that night, which is fine of course I could wait on my love as long as possible. I was certain I loved her, after all.
My peaceful evening alone was then interrupted by a sudden knock at the door. I knew Sayuri was still at work. My eyes twitched. No way, it couldn't possibly be them. I had rid them all from my mind, from me, from everything completely. Opening the door was a mistake, I knew that right away. Standing before me was Ichimatsu. One of my brothers. He was dressed in his purple parka, although it was torn up quite a bit. How had he gotten here? I didn't see a car or anything.

"Can I come in..?" He asked me in a monotone voice. I nodded as he stepped inside. His aura was dark as always, but it seemed to be different.

"Choromatsu." He started, his head hung low.

"..I know what you're going to ask and-"

"THEN EXPLAIN YOURSELF!" He screamed, voice cracking. He wouldn't face me, his back was turned. I suppose I couldn't blame him.

"What happened that night. Between you guys..tell me..tell me what happened..." He was shaking, trembling.

"Ichimatsu.."

"Cmon. Spit it out you coward.."

I approached him slowly and placed a hand on his shoulder.

"Okay. I'll talk..but calm down first..please.."

He sighed and turned around.

"Alright...okay..just tell me what happened please..." He uttered.

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[ 60 days ago ]

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"Do you think that's wrong? Is it wrong? Is it wrong that I love you, that I love you so much, Choromatsu?"

I completely froze. What was he talking about? What did this mean? In love with me..he was just crazy..

"Idiot! Are you fucking insane?! What is that supposed to mean?!" I yelled and pushed him off of me.

He fell backwards, landing headfirst against the floor. I heard him start to laugh slightly under his breath.

"I know right..? It's pretty insane..I'm pretty crazy. I've totally lost my mind. Falling in love with my own brother? How fucked up is that..?" Osomatsu laughed. Tears slowly fell from his eyes.

"Nii..san..."

"Guess I'm just so desperate for love and sex at this point..that's a virgin for ya..." He continued laughing.

"I...I don't know what to say..Osomatsu..this is really. Yeah..it is wrong..you've lost it.." I turned and looked away from him as I uttered those words. He then sat up, still crying. I looked down at him and our eyes locked.

"I think you need to leave..." I told him. "You should go..get help for this or something..it's not right.."

He didn't reply. He didn't move.

"Osomatsu..I'm sorry I really am but..I'm happy..and I'm in love...you should try to find someone like that for you.."

He stopped laughing. I saw him then stand up and look me in the eyes.

"I did. I found you." He smiled at me and ran his finger underneath his nose as he always did.

"Shut up..no just..just shut up!" I raised my voice.

"Leave already...you *shitty* eldest brother..YOU'VE LOST YOUR MIND!" I then screamed.

There were a few seconds of silence. I breathed heavily, still not being able to comprehend what was happening. He turned away and walked over to the door.

"Just..just go.." I said as a tear rolled down my cheek.

He slammed the door open and ran out quickly. Immediately I regret it all. No I didn't want him to go, no he couldn't leave not yet. I ran after him and saw him leave my apartment entirely.

"Choromatsu! What's going on where's Osomatsu going-" My mom asked in panic.

"I don't know I don't know just run after him!" I ran out of my apartment. I saw a flash of his red hoodie disappear into the woods. My heart was racing as I dashed after him. The forest was large and dark. I could hardly see a thing, let alone my older brother. Screaming his name, I felt myself lose balance and fall hard against the ground. I kept screaming his name over and over as I saw the red in his hoodie slowly fade into darkness. He was gone.

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[ Back to the present time ]

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"Choromatsu..."

I was silent, not knowing what else to say.

"Look I don't know where he went. We all spent days trying to find him in those woods, and everywhere else around here. I'm..I'm really sorry.." I began.

"Let me ask you something."

I looked up at Ichimatsu who was glaring right at me. Chills ran down my spine.

"How would you feel if you couldn't ever be with the one person you truly loved?"

The words caught me off guard. He wasn't actually saying that what Osomatsu was feeling was normal..he couldn't have been.

"Osomatsu is not-"

"He confessed his feelings to you and all you did was tell him what he already knew. He already knows he's insane for having feelings for his brother, he already knows he can never be with you. But despite all that...he..he came here anyways..to confess. Just to hear what you'd say. Whether or not it was really wrong.."
He paused for a moment as I stood there shaking.

"And I think he found his answer." He concluded. I was dumbfounded, his words hit me as if knifes had just went right through my heart. Osomatsu really did have feelings for me, as crazy as it was.

"It would mean a lot to me..if you came home to be with the rest of us for a little while. Everyone has changed. Everything is different. I'm the only one that wanted to seek you out and talk to you..so I did..everyone else they..kinda hate you..after all...you did this."

I nodded slightly.

"You're right. This is my fault. All of it, really it is. But I don't want to go where I'm not wanted. I don't think I could handle it."

Ichimatsu went silent. He started shaking.

"Please..please come home..it's hell over there..I need someone.." Ichimatsu was crying. I had never seen him cry, not once.

I knew I would regret it. I knew I would get hurt. But I could no longer live with this guilt. Approaching him carefully I ran my fingers through his messy hair and smiled.

"Ah..okay Ichimatsu you win..I'll go home with you..."