just a chase ; h.g & m.z

nine

[ MADDIE ]

The Teen Choice awards were one of my favorite award shows to attend ever year. I'm not sure why but I typically find them more fun then other award shows.

Well that was until this year.

The 2015 teen choice awards are being spent with me crying outside the auditorium and sitting outside the bathroom, still rattled by the events that occurred earlier this evening.

Who knew Maddie Ziegler of all people would let her heart be broken by some douchebag at the tender age of 12 years old.

I always thought that when I did fall for someone it would be so simple and that I would be completely in control of my emotions.

Boy was I wrong.

This month, I happened to let my emotions get the best of me, even though I thought that was something I never though would happen.

What all this made me realize about love is that it is impossible to be in control. You can fall for someone you thought you'd never fall for in such a short amount of time. You can fall for someone without even being aware and then all of a sudden heartbreak will hit you like a bag of bricks being thrown at you.

I guess this is something everyone eventually learns. I just happened to encounter the experiences that taught me this lesson before even reaching my teen years.

At least I got something out of all this.

"Why aren't you in there?" a voice which I  immediately recognize as the voice belonging to the reason I'm out here.

"I could ask you the same thing," I reply mindlessly trying as hard as possible to give off the illusion that I didn't care; although, I don't know how convincing I'm being.

"I was-- I was worried about you," he stutters awkwardly and without even looking at him, I know he's scratching his head just like he always does in awkward situations.

"I highly doubt that and honestly you have no reason to be worried about me," I retort coldly still not bothering to look at him. I hear him let out a frustrating sigh before continuing.

"Of course I do, Madz... I made you cry, I know I hurt you, and I feel so guilty."

"Don't," I reply simply, still gazing at the wall in front of me. "I was weak, I let my emotions get the better of me and I was stupid. It has nothing to do with you."

Most likely unable to think of anything better to say, Hayes says something that he probably shouldn't have.

"You look really beautiful tonight," he says as charmingly as possible and my head immediately snaps towards him. Suddenly the sadness the feeling of sadness in my heart disappears and is replaced with anger.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me," I chuckle although I'm not even slightly amused.

"What?" Hayes asks cluelessly. Of course he's clueless, what man isn't.

"You're such a bastard, like do you have an off switch because I would pay big money to shut your personality the fuck off," I snap furiously. Hayes continues to look extremely confused so I continue on with my rant.

"So first you give me the impression that you care for me, somehow make me fall for you, and then freak out at me for not making you my top priority. But then it doesn't end there and you basically taunt me with all these pictures of random girls all over your social media as if you're trying to rub it in my face that you can get any girl you want. But you still weren't satisfied with how badly you were fucking with my emotions and decided to parade around with another girl right in front of me," I cry in exasperation. "What was your goal here, Hayes? Were you trying to see how far you could push me until I cracked because if that was the objective then congratulations, you've achieved it!"

Hayes sits down next to me and grabs one of my hands as he says, "I was never trying to hurt you Maddie."

"You never fucking stop!" I exclaim and in my head I'm incredibly thankful that no one else is out here due to how loud I'm being.

I rip my hand out of his grasp and stand up to create as much distance between us as possible. "You can't just charm yourself out of every single situation. Be a big boy and own up to your mistakes."

"I-I..."

"This is all some kind of sick game to you to see if you could get the girl -- a chase," I say as I finally realize what the hell was going on here. He can't even formulate a response. That's how little this means to him.

"It's not a game to me I swear, it wasn't just some meaningless chase. You mean everything to me, why don't you understand that," he pleads with me, trying to be as sincere as possible; however, I'm not falling for his ways anymore.

"You're right it's not, because the chase is over, I'm done playing your games."

And that was the last thing I said to Hayes before strutting out of the building with no idea where I'm going.

My mother was probably going to pissed at me for just wandering off in an unknown state but that was the last thing on my mind.

I needed to clear my head of everything that just happened and remind myself that I am a boss ass bitch because it seems that I've forgotten who I am and need some time to remind myself.

Soon Maddie Ziegler will be back to her old self.

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Sorry that this chapter isn't that good. I just wanted to give you a chapter to finish off this story so here it is.

So I guess this is the end of my story "just a chase" and I hope you enjoyed it. Stay tuned for the sequel which will be posted soon.

Love you all and thanks for reading xx :)