Caused By You

Chapter Six

Alex POV

I slowly made my way to my room where grandma was with a crying River, he was either hungry or upset about all the shouting. As I knocked on the door my heart started to beat faster and faster, I was nervous not for me but for River.
He does deserve to know and meet River but he does not deserve to be part of his life. I know that he should be part of his life but, I have proven that I can handle River perfectly fine on my own.
"Grandma can I have River please." I could hear grandma moving to the door and unlocking it, before I saw her peep round the door.
"Are you sure sweetie?" She asked. I just nodded my head before reaching my hands out for River. My little rock. My perfect little man.
While walking back into the living room I was pulling faces at River, trying to get him to stop crying and to smile. Which worked instantly. He was smiling and giggling away while we walked down the hall into the living room.
I stopped smiling and giggling when I saw Rick sat on the sofa holding his hands to his face. I felt kind of bad but, then I remember what he did to me and I don't feel bad anymore.
I sat down on the sofa, making sure that me and Rick had space between us. Rick looked over but not at me. He was looking at River.
"Do . . . you want to hold him?" I asked calmly, trying to stop myself from stuttering in fear.
"Yes please. Only if your okay with it." He stated calmly while making eye contact with me. His eyes glowed blue, showing me his wolf. My wolf wouldn't show himself now. He was sat in the corner of my mind, trying to hide as far away as possible. He was scared and so was I but, I had to be brave for River. He was my rock and I need to be his.
I carefully moved him in my arms, making sure that he was comfortable, before I slowly handed him over to Rick. I will admit that he looked nervous and kind of panicked and that made me smile a little.
"Why are you smiling?" Rick asked me with a smile of his own. My heart fluttered a little bit and I could feel the blush rising up on my cheeks. I quickly looked down at River; Rick had placed him on his legs and was holding the back of his head with one hand. I could see that River was about to cry, he had never liked that position.
"You might want to ..." Before I could even tell Rick, River was already crying. This sent Rick into another frenzy of panic and I just couldn't help but to laugh.
"I didn't do anything, he just started crying." Rick spoke really quickly. When I looked up at Rick his eyes were wide and he looked like he didn't have a clue what to do.
   "Hold him by his head and by his back and slowly lift him to your chest. I will say he prefers it when it's skin to skin."
   "Is that why your topless?" I went red all over and I mean all over. I had completely forgot that I  was topless this entire time, and grandma hadn't even told me.
   "I forgot about that but yeah." I spoke shyly as I looked at River. He was still crying and Rick hadn't made a move to pick him up. I started to pull funny faces at him to stop him from crying, which actually worked for like two seconds.
   When I looked back up at Rick, he was now topless too and was now positioning his hands to pick up River. He slowly lifted River up onto his chest, where he then leaned himself back and starred at River.
"He has your eyes and nose." He whispered. I couldn't help the tears that were coming down my face. Why did he have to say stuff like that.
"Yeah well he is my son." I stated while sitting back with my arms crossed looking the other way.
"I'm sorry." Rick whispered.