Caused By You

Chapter Seven

Alex POV

"I'm sorry." Rick whispered. The tears just started and  they just wouldn't stop. Why did he have to say that? All I've wanted ever since what happened was for him to say sorry but, now that he has it just brought all the memories back and I just couldn't deal with it.
  I knew that he was holding River but I just couldn't deal with it. I had to get away just for a little while, yeah like an hour or something. So I just ... stood up and ran. I just ran and ran with the tears streaming down my face. I could hear Rick in the background shouting for me to come back, then I could hear River crying and grandma shouting and it just wouldn't process in my mind. I had to just run. Run from the memory.
   "Why? Why? Why?" Was all that was running through my mind as I stopped in front of the lake. This lake was my favourite growing up. It holds some of the best memories I have here, like the time my dad was teaching me how to swim and my mum came swimming up behind me and tickled me a little just to make me giggle. Oh and the time we brought the bbq down here and we had a little family dinner party here, it was summer and we were all sweating so much.
   I was starting to calm down when all of a sudden I was tackled to the ground and held there. I started to scream and thrash about as I knew instantly who it was. I could tell by he tickling feeling that was running through my body.
   "Get off of me." I yelled as he held me down even more.
   "No!" He shouted in his alpha voice. That's when I realised that he didn't have River.
   "Where's River?" I asked in a fit of panic while trying to get up.
   "With your grandma." He whispered as he slowly let up, which was his mistake in a way. I quickly went to shove him back and get up but, as I did we rolled over. He refused to let go of me. When we finished rolling about I couldn't help but blush a little, meaning I blushed a lot, because of the new position we were in. We had somehow managed to roll about that much that I was now sat on top of Rick but, he had me leaning forward over him as he was still holding onto my wrists.
   "Just leave me alone ... please." I whispered while resting my head against his chest.
   "No!" He whispered back.
   "Why?"
   "Because your mine!" He growled out; I could feel the alpha within him and it was scaring me.
   "Please let me go!" I shouted as I struggled to get out of his grip once again.
   "NO!" Rick roared as he rolled us back over so that he was on top, his eyes were glowing bright blue while he decided to growl.
"Get of me I can't stand you touching me!" I shouted back. I felt guilt as soon as I had said those words. I could feel the moment his heart broke and I mean broke. He let go of me and had tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Do you actually mean that?" He whimpered.
"Every time my mind would go back to you over the past year and one month, my wolf would whimper and shy away from me. The day I found out I was pregnant he told me to run." I whispered as I looked away from him.
"Why though?" He cried and when I said cried, he cried his eyes out just like I had after what he did to me.
"Because of what you did you absolute arsehole." I shouted while punching his chest.
"I'm sorry."
"Sorry isn't gonna help." I whispered before trying to get him once again off of me.
This time he let me get up but I just sat a few inches away from him. I didn't know what to do anymore. I was scared, angry, upset and some how through all of it I still kind of liked him a little. I would say love but I don't want to admit that yet.
"I want to be apart of Rivers life Alex." He stated with a sad expression upon his face. That's when I started to panic once again.
"I don't know if I could handle that Rick." I whispered while looking out at the lake.
"Please don't call me Rick. You know I don't like it." He whispered while holding his head in his hands.
"Well that's what your getting." I stated as I stood myself back up.
"Why?" He whimpered as I started to walk away.
"Because I don't belong to a pack anymore. Which means no alpha." I shouted as I ran away again. I knew that would be the thing to break him.
As I ran back through the forest, a howl was sounded out from the lake. I knew that howl all too well. It was the howl of a broke heart.