I don't want to lose myself (killua x reader)

Your such a perv

Killua P.O.V

I walked back home pissed. I told everyone about (y/n) being in the hospital.

They all rushed to the hospital as fast as they could, especially lizzy, whom had hickeys all over neck and so did Gon.

He got some...

I need to blow off steam. I whip out my phone and call Kim. "Hello~" she said purring into the phone.

"Kim..." I groan her name into the phone. "Don't talk like that, you know how that turns me on." I whine let out a tired sigh.

She laughed and purrs, "that's all I need to keep doing it." I let out a groan, and tighten the grip around my phone.

"Come over to my house." I said smirking slightly. "Hmm~ I'll wear your favorite panties." She hung up quickly after that.

I smirk and open the front door to my house. Everyone was out with (y/n) making sure if she's ok. I quickly strip and grab a towel.

I head toward the my bathroom. I quickly turn on the hit water and hop in. The steaming hot hits my body.

I let out a sigh needing this shower more than anything. I didn't know why I was pissed. It confused me to be honest.

~*~*~*~*~*~*

I heard the door bell ring. I quickly head down stairs in just a towel. I open the door to see Kim smirking.

She wraps her arms around my neck, and she closes the door with her foot. She quickly locks it. She pushes me down on the couch straddling my hips.

Suddenly, my mind goes over to (y/n). I felt anger wash over me, and I don't know why. I flip Kim over; while I hover over her.

I kiss her roughly, and let my hands wander around her body. She wraps her arms around my neck pulling me closer.

Her fingers run through my hair. There's something missing here...what is it? I couldn't help but think that while I kissed her.

~*~*~*~*~*

Kim quickly dresses herself. "I gotta go. I'll see you at school tomorrow! I love you~" She kissed my cheek and left. I decide to take another shower.

I get out and put on sweat pants. I look outside my window to see everyone returning, including (y/n).

The doctor said one of ribs cracked but it'll heal soon, but she has to make sure not cause anymore damage to the rib.

I clicked my tongue and close the curtains. I laid down on my bed closing my eyes. The moon was out replacing the sun.

I looked over to my clock on my nightstand. 1:37. I closed my eyes once again; while sleep took over.

"Ahhhhhh!"

My eyes flew open and I looked around. I look over at my nightstand. 4:26. Who's screaming at this time. I stood up and walked over to my balcony.

I open the sliding door. The lights turned on in (y/n)'s room. The curtains were open letting me see everything.

Her whole body trembling in fear. Tears stained her cheeks. I could tell she was having trouble breathing, by the way her chest was moving.

She took in a breath and let it out. She repeated this until she calmed down. She moved all of her hair to her right shoulder.

Her wavy hair in a mess. It's a good look for her. Suddenly, there was the one piece of hair that's (h/c).

(H/c) hair would definitely fit (y/n) instead of black hair. I quickly jump over to her balcony. I knocked on the sliding door.

Her head turns to me and her eyes widen. She opens and I enter. I lay down on her bed making myself comfortable. "What do you want?" She asks her face twisting in annoyance.

"Why were you screaming?"

"Nightmare."

"Why did you dye your hair black?"

She opens her mouth to speak but no words come out. I didn't know if (h/c) was really her natural hair color or not.

I'll just what she says. I'll chose if I believe her or not. Biscuit taught me some things to tell me whether someone is lying or not.

The only reason I asked about it, is because I want to know if (y/n) is lying or not.

Why am I doing so much for her? I have Kim. But I feel like she's not enough. Maybe I'm just being paranoid.

No your not. You don't even love Kim. You just decided you would date her just to get the fangirls off of you. You ended up being captive around her finger.

Who are you?

Your conscious, it's been awhile.

Oh, yeah. Hey. Your right I was only using Kim before, but that doesn't mean anything. Everything is going wrong now that (y/n) is here.

Mhmmmm! You like (y/n) you just refuse to acknowledge that.

I do not.

Yeah you do! I mean look at those lips. Don't you wanna just kiss them. Her small frame to hug at night. Those big innocent round eyes. Damn and dat ass—

Shut up, I don't like her.

Yeah? Then why were you staring at her boobs.

Aye! I wasn't.

So was.

So wasn't!

Yes!

No!

Yes!

No!

No!

Yes!

Ah-ha, you just admitted it.

Okay, I'm going crazy I'm going back to the real world.

You know you want dat ass—

SHUT UP!

"I wanted to see what I looked like with my hair black. I like it." She finally answered. She bit her lips nervously. She's lying.

Look at her boobs I know you what to!

"Tell me the truth!" I demand but my eyes wander to her boobs.

Damn, your such a perv. *shakes head*

SHUT THE HELL UP!!

I hope y'all enjoyed.