Poems

Since You've Been Gone

This is the first time I've written a poem on my laptop.

It's been awhile since I've had inspo for writing a new poem.

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Since you've been gone

I've wanted to cry.

I don't know why

I cannot cry

But my eyes

Seem to be dry.

Since you've been gone

I've felt broken on the inside,

Like there's a part of me missing

And I just can't fill it,

No matter how hard I try.

The company of family

Only does so much

When you long for

The company of

The one you love.

Since you've been gone

I've nearly lost my mind.

You seem to keep me

Sane enough to think,

But when you're gone

I lose myself to thought.

Since you've been gone

I've tried so hard

To keep you off my mind,

As every time

You come to mind

I start to feel down again.

Since you've been gone

I've not felt much.

Your presence does me

A whole lot of good.

And when you're gone

I have no one to share

My deepest thoughts,

Because I would need

To explain a lot

To someone else.

Since you've been gone

I've tried to distract myself

With games,

And family,

Questioning my sexuality,

Shipping,

And Youtube,

And going on vacation.

But nothing is working,

As you can tell,

Because you always dwell

In the back of my mind.

Since you've been gone

I've dreaded my family's leave,

Because when I'm alone

I get sad and down

Because you're gone.

Since you've been gone

I've been missing you.

Every hour of the day

That I'm awake

And even when I sleep.

Since you've been gone

I've dreamt of you,

Being here with me.

Away from home,

Just us away from

Everyone else.

Since you've been gone

I've gotten angry

At the thought of her,

At the thought of you

Still wanting her,

That she could replace me.

And I know you try

So hard to tell me

That she never could,

But the demons

In my mind

Always succeed in telling me

That you're just saying that

To make me feel better.

It must be a pain

To have to constantly

Reassure me

That I'll always be

Your bestie.

I'm sorry I cause you

So much trouble

Because of my anxiety.

Since you've been gone

My demons have come out

More often,

Telling me that you

Are having a jolly old time

Being away from me.

Since you've been gone

My demons told me

That you probably

Don't care when you get

To come back to me.

Since you've been gone

My demons have told me

That you probably don't miss me

As much as I miss you.

Since you've been gone

I've spent so much more time

Trying to be happy,

Trying to stay sane,

Trying to cope,

Trying to tame my demons,

When all those things

Are so much easier

When you're around.

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inspo: situation in my life

please comment to tell me what you think.

I think I might have lost my charm, my good poetry skills. What say you?