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name.
name me.
name?
whats in a name?
wonder
safety
pride
response
individuality
thought
personalization.
name me.
my name?
they called me
the wrong name
one that isnt me
doesnt fit
like shoving your foot into size 4 heels
it isnt me
i am not
emily.
they call me
by that name
which leaves an ache in my ears
in my head
because it isnt me.
they call me
by that name
because i cant tell
my real name
the one that fits
the one i feel
is me
is right
is true
to me and my identity.
they call me
by that name
and my first response is to say
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
as i walk by.
they call me by that name
and they dont know
how it feels
when the name they gave you
isnt you
isnt right
isnt true
to you.
i am ash
when i am ash
i am not emily
i am always ash
but i cannot say.
ash is silent
ash is polite
ash hates emily.
ash wants to ignore
them
when they call ash emily
ash wants to scream
i am ash.
i am not
emily
i am
ash
and ash
loves ash
but emily
hates ash
and ash hates emily.
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Poems
Poetryand i called out to the stars; "what is the meaning of life without wonder?" --rated mature for suicidal themes-- a book of poems
