A Story To Remember

Matt

I fell on my knees feeling like the whole world is falling over me.. Feeling like the whole world is shackling my feet..
Not knowing where to go or where to belong ,I'm always under this huge grey cloud ..waiting for the sun to appear and melt my chain ,so desperately waiting same as this thirsty ground which is waiting for the rain but got my tears drops instead ,yeah I'm crying ..I'm tearing apart ,yeah I'm crying giving my pain out ..and there is no one to lay my head on his thighs ,I'm struggling all by my own ..
Hearing my echoes crying, screaming but it's all in vain ,I felt a hand touching my shoulder from behind I turned my head to see what's waiting for me but it was her I mean that dark girl again ..
I kept staring at her eyes and they were burning or probably I am the burning one and that's nothing but my reflexion in her glassy eyes ..
I'm hearing the ashes calling my name ,waiting for the wind to throw it away ...
"Matthew" she said ,but I still can't get her ,I'm loosing my mind ,this is too much for a ghost to handle ,too much for a broken man to handle ,I wonder how many days has passed while I'm still stuck with my fear ,I actually missed the crowded cities ,I miss the sun and the sound of birds ,I really miss that boring silly life I used to have ,it's better than being lonely forgotten by the world ..
I wonder what the universe is doing now ,how my destiny is planning to be ,and what else could happen to me ,did any one hear my holler !!
Is there someone watching me !!
Didn't they see me falling !!
falling into my nightmares yet not waking me ..
All what kept whizzing into my ear is Matthew Matthew Matt.... but can't she understand I'm not who she think I am ,after a few minutes of annoying silence which took me away I just yelled out loud " I'm not your Matthew " I yelled throwing all my anger on her ,showing her the hidden beast in me ,showing her the worst face she can see ,and so wildly removed her hand from my shoulder .
My anger my hater my confused emotions got me too blind to see her sad look yet she didn't yell back at me she didn't say a word ..
Why is she so calm and always around !! While I run out of patience and I end up being a weak creature.