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it's been a few months now without Jesy. It hasn't been the same since that car crash. Now everything is a mess. I'm probably the biggest mess here. Jade still doesn't remember us but she's slowly getting better. She still has that crush on me. Owen was out if the ER a while ago. They keep putting jade back in the hospital to run tests on her extended amnesia shit. Louis has had to take care of Owen this whole time alone. I think Zayn and Perrie loopped to the u.s or something. I don't know. No ones really heard from ether of them. But let's just say that it's all a big disaster now. Even Harry had left. It just wasn't the same.
I missed Jesy. She was still in the hospital dying I guess. I did my best to get up every morning knowing that I might not see her again. But this morning I asked at breakfast "can I go to the hospital?"
"Are you hurt?" Leigh asked.
"No." I said stuffing my face with food. "But... I wanna check on Jesy."
"Why? You know she's still dying. What more do you need to know?" Liam asked.
"Pleas? I really wanna see her again."
"He hasn't talk to anyone but Leigh in so long." Louis added. "Even of Jesy can't answer him, at least she's listening."
"Louis has sorta a point." Leigh added.
"Yeah, i could always tell Jesy basically everything. There are some things that I still have to say. You know? Something I just can't say to anyone
but Jesy."
"If she can't answer what the point in saying anything?" Liam asked.
"There are words left unsaid." I answered. "What wasn't said is what she needs to hear. And what I have to say. If I can't say them, there's no telling how bad I'll get if..." I didn't let myself continue.
"That's a stronger point than Louis'." Liam added. "Sure, go ahead Niall. But take Louis with you."
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A few hours after breakfast, I gave Owen up to Leigh so I could take Niall down to the hospital. We were about to leave when we heard something on tv.
Tv
Guy 1: "no one knows just what happened to Perrie or Zayn."
Guy 2: "and jade hasn't known who they are. Poor Harry doesn't even live with them."
Guy 1: "something tragic happened to Jesy as well."
Guy 2: "could this be the bitter ending of British bands one direction and little mix?"
Liam turned off the tv and looked back at me and Niall. "I don't wanna go anymore." Niall said. I looked at him. "There are probably millions of fans and pap waiting to get in anyway."
"They're not letting any fans in Niall." I said. "Come on, I'm sure ev-"
"Don't say it!" Niall cut me off. "Don't be the jinx like you always were! I'll go if you shut the hell up."
We walked outside to the car.
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Again, still not dead. Eh. So many times i wish I died. Being only able to hear things around me kinda sucks. It did until now that is.
Though you probably couldn't tell, I was awake when I heard the door open and close. I knew someone was here. My attempt to look and see who it was failed. Then someone grabbed my hand.
"I really don't know if you can even hear me." Someone said. I'd been the the dark silent world for so long now, I forgot who's voice that really was. "And it's Niall, since you probably can't tell." Thank god! "There is still so much that you know, I haven't said.... I wanna say it but... I-I can't...."
I listen to everything he said about this. How everyone was gone. How he was a reck. How everything he did reminded him of me. But he said one thing that really caught my attention. "The thought of not being able to go on tour with the boys is pretty bad. But not being able to come home to you has been so much worse." I could tell he was crying.
It got really quiet after a while. I started seeing things. Not like actually looking around but random shit. Stuff that you might see if you were on some drug. Seeing things that aren't really there. I still felt NIALLS hand on mine. He soon let go. I wanted to grab his hand again but I couldn't. I started to get scared. I could see things that you might not see if you could see the real world.
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Omg! This is so hard to write now! :( I feel like I'm gonna make myself cry writing this. I hope this seams interesting to you guys.
If some of you don't know what this means:
Looped is like running off and getting married in secret.
Pezz, you learn that in the outsiders I think. I did! :) I'm still about to fricken cry though. I can't keep writing this! I can't kill Jesy! I can't hurt Niall like that!
-Jesy
~Katie Horan
