🚬ZAYN🚬
I was kinda scared about Perrie going with Niall. He wasn't exactly the most trusting person when it comes to being safe. But I let it go. I decided to go to Mulingar too eventually. So I got dressed then went to fix my hair. Right by my stuff was a note.
Sorry I didn't tell you(and I may have lied too) but I'm probably in England by now or at least on the plane with Emma. I left because I wanted to go home. I knew you wouldn't let me. So I left without telling you. It would amazing if you decided to come home too. I miss you. I couldn't tell you this through the phone so I wrote the note knowing you would have some reason to fix your hair. You probably are gonna kill me for it but I'm sorry and I miss you.
"Shit!" I said. I laid down on my bed. "Dammit!"
🌸🌸PERRIE🌸🌸
NIALLS been a bigger help than I thought. He's actually helping with Emma and keeping Leigh and Liam from pissing me off. I was just trying to keep my sanity. The fact that Jesy was almost dead really pissed me off though. No one cared! Wtf! If she was really dead for sure, would they care? NO! Only me and Niall really.
It's been a few weeks though and Niall wanted me to go down to the hospital later to check up on Jesy. He said that jade was there again too but I really didn't care. I went down but I didn't take Emma. I left her with Niall.
"She's still on the verge of death." I heard one of the doctors say before I walked in.
"There was this one time when she came too enough to speak." Another doctor said "and she said that she didn't want to be here in this world anymore. That she wasn't good enough to live and that we should just kill her now."
"We can't do that love." One of the doctors walked out into the hall he saw me and asked "do you know anything about this?" I looked up at him and shook my head. I was sitting up against the wall. "We don't get a lot of people like that you know, she's the only one I've had to deal with before."
"She's always been a bit stubborn I guess." I said looking at my phone. Zayn kept texting me. Saying he was really mad and that he'd come home eventually. "I just kinda miss her though."
"Ye, it's tough trying to deal with something like this. We can't say that she's gonna die but we can't tell you she'll live. This is one of the hardest things to predict witch Is why we don't." I didn't answer him after that so he walked away.
I went into the room and I didn't expect anyone to know I was here. But I said something anyway. "Don't let yourself die." After a while, I was about to leave when I heard my name in a soft sick voice. I turned to face Jesy. "Yes?"
"Don't go..." Jesy mumbled. "I don't wanna be here."
"I know. But you have to be." I walked back over to Jesy. "I've got to go."
"Why? There's. Nothing more important than me right? Or maybe you just don't care like everyone else?"
🎸🎸🎸NIALL🎸🎸🎸
I was at home watching Emma. Perrie actually trusted me! Yay! "You're so quiet." I said watching Emma. She was sitting on the floor playing with one of her toys. I was on the couch watching football. Louis put Owen next to Emma then walked away. "Louis!" I said. He looked at me. "I'm not responsible for any shit Owen dose." Louis shrugged and walked away.
After a while, Emma kept looking at me. It had been a few hours and Perrie still wasn't back yet. Then she texted me.
P: Niall, take Emma and get down to the hospital. Now would be a good time
N: ok but she looks tired, what if she falls asleep?
(I took Emma outside to zayns car again.)
P: that's actually a good thing. I don't want her to be awake for this. If she's sleeping maybe I won't have to sit through it ether.
N: through what? What happened to Jesy?
P: I don't know if I should really tell you. Are you here yet?
N: ok, yeah I'm here.
I took Emma out of the car, and she was asleep. When I walked inside Perrie took Emma and told me to go into Jesys room. So I did.
Jesy was awake. Sorta. And she was saying something to one of the doctors. I could kinda hear it. "Why couldn't i just died? Make it so much better? Kill me again? I liked being dead."
"Shut up!" I said. Jesy looked at me. "Stop talking, just stop talking." I walked over to her. "You're awake this time?"
"Yeah, can I leave now."
"I wish. But you can't."
"Ugh! But I wanna leave."
"Can you put her under something?" I asked one of the doctor. He nodded. I walked out. "She's fine." I told Perrie. "Can we go now?"
"Uh huh." Perrie followed me outside.
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Ok, idk I'm tired. Bye
My life is screwed up and I'm in an unstable state of mind
-Jesy
~Katie Horan
