"Borderline Happy, Borderline Sad" (written for someone else)
Oh my god, this is paradise. Nights like these are nights where I can bask in the glory of having you out of my life. I am able to be happier and I am now motivated to do things. I can live my life without having you hold me back. I don't have to worry about you sneaking behind my back and being dragged around like a toy. I am free now.
But then there are nights where I have mixed emotions about you. I miss you, I dislike you, I hate you. I'll hit and yell at myself wondering why I was so stupid as to trust you. I'll scream at the ground, grab at the carpet and burst into tears whispering to myself, "Why wasn't I enough for you? What did I do to disappoint you?" Slowly, I relax. Then I lean against a wall and bend over, holding my knees as my lips start to shake and the tears build up quickly once again. Then they fall fast and land on the carpet. And, I try not to make any noise so I suck it in but it hurts too much so I let out a cry as I try
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Sadness Hotel | Uncompleted
PoetryEnjoy your stay! note: not all these entries are about myself, some are written in the perspective of someone else.
