(More of) Victoria's Rants

☞ back-to-school rant

[warning; this rant is super long and pretty pointless to mostly all of you and I'm not sure why it turned out so long but eh enjoy]

for some of you, school has started already, and others like me, are lucky enough to still be on summer break. I go back august 29th, and I'm worrying and preparing for school now? (lol I take that back I've been worrying and preparing for school since the beginning of this month)

I posted a rant last year in my old crappy rant book about the pros and cons and basically talking about seventh grade, so I thought I'd do the same thing this year, where I post a rant about starting a new school year. of course, since I'm so not a genius and can skip a year, I'm going into the eighth grade (everyone's going into/in high school and like where are the people who aren't bc I can't be the only one) and just no.

also, quickly wanna say that I reread the seventh grade rant I posted and can I just say I was literally making such a big deal about entering seventh grade like the first day wasn't that bad and the year wasn't really complicated (aside from math, that classroom was my personal hell) and even though I hated seventh grade I was acting like I was going into high school lol and oh #tbt to when I actually liked doing colorguard

I get my schedule tomorrow and you have no fucking idea how petrified I am about it. but I'm excited at the same time???

I'm honestly scared of seeing what my classes are and sharing it with others and figuring out if I have any classes with my friends. this has been happening since sixth grade where I get put in classes where I don't know anyone, so I really won't be surprised if I find out I don't have any of my friends in my classes this year, but I will be pissed. everyone else seems to know someone in their classes on the first day and I just sit there like some loner waiting for someone to talk to me first lmao kms. I guess it's a good thing because then I can expand my friend group, though.

I'm excited because then the suspense of knowing who's in my classes and who isn't will fade away and I'll feel extra prepared for the first day, I can figure out who my teachers are, what supplies I need, and where in the building I'm gonna have to visit on the guide day where we can visit the school and meet the teachers and stuff, which is on monday.

I'm not even that shy, I consider myself to be outgoing in a way, I just don't like making the first move and talking to people first. like, someone can come up to me, and I'll be all for talking to them and being myself and crack bad jokes, but I can't seem to do it first, ya feel?

I really want to make new friends that I can hang out with and just have a good time and text all day. I don't have many of those right now, so I'd like to have more, which will be cool.

plus, on instagram, everyone at my school blows up and shares their schedule with the world and people comment if they have any classes together and who their teaches are and all that shit. I've done it before, but I didn't share my schedule, I just said who my teachers were on the notes app and just screenshotted it. and then I get put in a bunch of group chats that are only made to share schedules and I have to like send my schedule to people 384847859284 times during the day.

and I learned on tuesday that we don't even get to know when our lunch period is until the first day of school???? @ whoever makes the schedules why can't you put our lunch period on it???? life would be easier????

I never stepped foot in the eighth grade building, so going to guide day is a must for me, even though I don't want to face the people I go to school with, because all of them are annoying as fuck and I want nothing to do with.

if you didn't know, I wear glasses, which I want to change this year and exchange them for contacts. I was supposed to get an appointment about them at the beginning of the month, but since my dad is a piece of shit, he hasn't bothered to call in for one yet. and I told my mom so many fucking times I'm not going into eighth grade in glasses, and she understands me, but she for reason won't tell my dad about it no matter how many times I complain to her about it.

it's too late now since if my dad calls in for an appointment now, I'll most likely get one next week, the week before school starts, and they'll order my contacts then, which will take a week or two for them to come. so, I won't get them until the third week of school at the most, fml. I seriously wanted to get them before school starts so I can start the school year in contacts and avoid people thinking or asking, "why are you not wearing glasses anymore?" plus, I fucking hate how I look with glasses???

don't even get me started on braces.

anyways, back to the topic of starting a new school year. I did my clothes shopping two weeks ago and I did some today, which by the way I'm so happy with what I bought and legitimately 95% of the reason I'm excited for school because of the clothes, and I'm gonna do my supplies shopping this saturday, after I get my schedule and I know exactly what I need to buy.

this is accurate except I care about what I look like every day since I refuse to let people see me look like shit when I'm not at home

I should probably start fixing my sleeping schedule bc it's rlly fucked up rn and I need to stop going to sleep at four in the morning but it's slowly getting there like instead of going to sleep at five am and waking up at two pm I'm going to sleep at four am and waking up at eleven am/twelve pm so it's getting somewhere at least

and this happens every year where I can't seem to fall asleep on the night before the first day like no matter what I do and I just can't like I just lie in bed overthinking the next day and yeesh

also the school building is thREE FLOORS HIGH AND THE LOCKERS ARE APPARENTLY RLLY RLLY RLLY FUCKING THIN SO IF I COULD BARELY HANDLE THE DECENTLY THICK LOCKERS I HAD IN SEVENTH GRADE IM FUCKED LIKE MY LOCKER WAS A COMPLETE MESS ALL YEAR AND JUST THIS IS GONNA BE THE DEATH OF ME

actually no the death of me will be getting to my classes on time bc I couldn't rlly accomplish that last year and since I also heard that classes will be far away from each other in most cases, lol bye ya'll

there's literally four or five spanish teachers and only one french teacher so that's gr8 and since the fucker who cannot decide if he likes me or hates my existence also takes french and with my luck I won't be fucking surprised if I walk into french class for the first time and realize I have french with him wow (plus the french teacher is a complete old bitch so I'm screwed either way)

and the building has such weird stairs like on some stairs you can only go up them and other stairs you can only go downstairs and that doesn't sound too bad but like it's really confusing I don't even

let's hope eighth grade doesn't suck ass because the last time I had an actual decent year was fifth grade sigh

I'm actually gonna try studying this year because ever since I started school I always winged tests and quizzes and it doesn't help and I wanna make advanced classes in high school and feel smart for once and ye

I'm also trying packing lunch this year because I don't like eating the cafeteria food anymore and I'm broke af so

I did this last year so why not do it again: what grade are you entering this year? pros and cons?

I doubt anyone read all of this but if you did here is a virtual pat on the back and a congratulations sticker! I might rant about my schedule/guide day/first day/week idk I'm rlly annoying when it comes to starting a new school year

peace

(ps bizaardwark or whatever is probably the most annoying shit I've ever seen on television and it makes me lose brain cells like why hasn't anyone cancelled it yet)

(pps I am determined to go to that twenty one pilots concert in january like I missed slfl and that made me too sad I'm not missing this one idc)