Monday morning I woke up bright and early, an hour earlier than when I usually wake up. I had spent all of Sunday in my room, watching makeup tutorials and trying on my new clothes. I hated to admit it, but I actually really liked how I looked in my more dolled up outfits.
I spent my extra time putting on natural makeup (I liked the clothes, however I did not like the heavy makeup), dressing in a flowy, Bohemian top and some ripped skinny jeans, and loosely curling my hair. I was very proud of myself for burning myself only twice!
By 7:30 I'm ready to go downstairs. Hesitantly, I open my bedroom door. Normally, I'm a confident person but I'm still very nervous to see the boys reaction. What will they think? How badly will they judge me? What will go on in Josh's head? I didn't want to admit that I was mostly thinking about Josh's opinion.
Sighing, I head for the stairs. I know they are down there waiting for me so there is no point in stalling. I'm about to turn the corner when I hear their hushed voices.
"Yeah dude something's up with her. She spent the day with Vonnie. She hates Vonnie!" Tanner exclaims.
Before Josh can reply I walk into the kitchen, avoiding eye contact. Swiveling around them towards the pantry, I grab a granola bar and head towards the front door. The whole time I could feel their eyes watching me, no doubt confused and surprised.
"By the way," I flip around and glare at Tanner. "I actually like Vonnie. She gives me the respect I deserve. She's not the one I hate." With that I go outside towards the car, slamming the front door behind me. I slip in the backseat and breathe.
I couldn't stop thinking about Josh that entire time.
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The car ride to school was awkward to say the least. Nobody spoke a word. As soon as we reached the school I all but sprinted out of the car. There was no way I was going to walk with them because they would just make me talk.
Entering first hour was not what I had expected it to be like. I didn't think people really cared but I guess I was wrong. In every class I could feel my peers eyes burning into my back. It was awful.
By the night lunch rolled around, I was ready to go home. I could not stand the staring and whispering. I even heard some guy say, "who's the new hot girl?" Gosh that was embarrassing. Imagine being naked, in a room with every single student in your school. That's how I felt.
Grabbing some nasty food from the lunch line, I sit down at a random table and sigh. Maybe Josh and Tanner were right. How can I handle being on the boys soccer team if I can't even handle dressing up like a girl? I glance over at my old table and meet Tanner's eyes. He looks back in pity. He gets up to come to my table.
Just then I realize that I don't need someone pitying me. Yes, I'm a girl, but I'm a strong one. Who says I need his pity? Before he can reach me I get up and sit down at the closest table where three other girls are sitting.
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My Soccer Boy
Roman pour AdolescentsDanielle aka Dani has a strong love and passion for soccer. She lives and breathes it. But when the girls team gets cut, she is forced to play with the boys. Dani's life changes from playing with the guys and she experiences things she never thought...