I didn't know pain until I thought of leaving you.
I didn't know what it was like to cry.
I didn't know what it was like to want to go with you .
But it's funny how the circumstances change when I might loose you.
My heart shuts down.
No emotion show except that
Screaming
Crying
Sobbing
Gut wrenching feeling of walking away.
But knowing that I couldn't stay.
I refuse to leave.
Even when you threaten to look the other way.
It's hard to say, that nothing quite matters anymore.
Once you walk right out that door.
I think that I've never felt till I layed my eyes apon you.
That I never knew what else to do.
So confused, can't understand what is true.
My mind on fire.
These thoughts fighting their way through.
Forcing themselves all over you
Stressing you out.
Shutting me down.
No knowing what to do keeping theses possibilities all inside
Not sure what do say.
So I act like it was all taken away.
Throw myself at another wall.
Forget to answer that one call.
But I find myself with a smile.
Even after all those knives
When I see your okay.
Until is see that smile sway.
And I open a door that was never opened before.
