A Blank Sheet Of Paper

YOU ARE

They gather around my bed again and start talking.

"Darling, I'm your Papa Anton and this is your Mama Kris. We are your parents, we are here by your side everyday." Sabi nun familiar man.

Kaya pala napaka-familiar nila sa akin mula sa mukha hanggang sa boses. I can't believe it they are my parents and I can't remember them. It must be devastating for them knowing that I forgot them. I look at my Papa who is adoringly looking at me. I also look at my Mama who's trying to control her sob.

"I'm sorry Mama and Papa I forgot you. But I know that you're both special to me when I saw you coz you two look familiar to me." I said

"Sino po sila?" Pertaining to the old couple.

"This is your Tita Andrea and Tito Alex. Sila yung tumulong sa atin sa mga needs at bills pati pag-aasikaso sayo. Hindi nila tayo pinabayaan lalo ka na. They are always here at sila ang kapalitan namin sa pagbabantay sa'yo." Sabi ni Mama

Nagpasalamat ako sa kanila then all of a sudden, umiyak si tita andrea while hugging me tight.

"I am really happy that you are awake, we are very sorry and thankful at the same time to you parents dahil you accepted our help."

Ang bigat pa din ng feeling ko, parang nahihirapan akong huminga at sumasakit ang ulo ko. Hindi ko alam anong iisipin ko at anong mararamdaman ko.

*hingang malalim, hawak sa dibdib, pikit muna*

I felt like it's their responsibility talaga kasi it's their fault. Pero walang galit ako maramdaman for them. Diba dapat kapag ganun ang nangyari sayo tapos may temporary memory loss ka you will be frustrated and mad about the situation lalo na sa may kasalanan sa nangyari. Parang wala akong hatred na maramdaman sa kanila siguro hindi lang ako natutuwa sa situation ko pero wala akong galit na maramdaman.

"Iha, ok ka pa ba?" Sabi ni Tito Alex

"Sorry po, naguguluhan po ako pero getting better naman po. Can I have a glass of water po? And pwede po bang magpahinga lang saglit ako." I smiled at them while saying this

"Sure darling, pahinga ka muna." Sabi ni papa while kissing my forehead

"If you need anything anak, nasa lounge lang kami. Just call us." Sabi ni tito alex.

It felt good having my parents here and my new found tito and tita.

I slept the whole afternoon, paggising ko nagkkwentuhan sila mama at papa kasama sina tita andrea at tito alex.

"Pa, may food po? Parang nagugutom ako." Sabi ko.

Nagprepare sila ng food at sabay-sabay kami kumain. Nagkwentuhan na kami while eating.

I asked, "Ma, sino yung steffie po? Kasi may nadinig ako na nagsabi sakin niyan parang panaginip."

"Darling, si irish at steffi ay iisa lang. Your name is IRISH STEFFANIE ANDRADE." Sabi ni Mama

"We call you Irish sa house, some of your friends at school at sa work mo steffanie ang tawag sa'yo. Iba iba ang tawag nila sa'yo kaya siguro baka maguluhan ka lang. Haha" natatawang sabi ni Mama

"You are already 26 years old, working na din sa isang malaking accountancy firm sa makati. Graduate and licensed accountant ka darling. The company knows your condition na, so nakasick leave ka indefinite. Pumayag naman sila, madalas ka nga dalawin ng workmates mo at ng mga boss mo." Pagkwento ni Mama

If that's the case, I have responsibilities pala sa trabaho. Paano na yan, gaano na kaya ako katagal naka-leave?

"When did the accident happened?" I asked my Mama.