Loving you is killing me (Harry Styles fanfiction)

Chapter twelve

We drove in silence... the nice silence. I knew we could start any conversation, but I just wanted to sit like that and enjoyed the ride. I looked at him and he was smiling a bit. He turned his head on me and smirked. "Hey, eyes on the road, sir!" I faked a panic. "As you wish, ma'am" he smiled and his dimples showed up. He was perfect... really!!

We approached our destination- his flat after about 15 minutes. "C'mon little lady, we're here" Harry told me. I made my way off the car and Harry was already standing next to my door. He grabbed my waist and pulled me into his arms. He hugged me tightly and passionately, it felt so right. I felt so safe in his arms. "Did you mean it in the car.. the whole ,mine' thing?" he asked and I saw worry in his eyes. I slowly nodded and he grabbed my face into his huge palms and kissed me.

It was that amazing kiss that you could never forget, long, full of passion, full of lust and maybe something more... I pushed that thought deep into my mind and kissed Harry back. After a while I pulled away from him to get some air to my lungs. He smiled, kissed my forehead and we slowly walked into his apartment.

His flat was amazing. I was expecting something dark, messy, smelly.... But the opposite was true! Walls were painted white and light blue, floor was dark wooden, but it looked perfect together. Furniture was modern and really nice. "I am surprised, Styles!!" I said in astonishment. "How's that? Did you expect something more 'man' or what?" he laughed. I had to laugh with him, 'cause he was so cute when he was laughing. "I love that sound." he said suddenly. "What sound?" I had no idea what he was talking about. "The sound of your laugh. It's the most beautiful laugh I've ever heard" he said and I saw that his cheeks are light pink. He was blushing!! OMG! "Mh, thanks Harry, nobody has ever told me that." I smiled.. I couldn't smile at his blushing, he'd take it as something bad.

"Anything to drink, m'lady?" he asked me with a bow. I laughed: "Yes, sir. I'd like water, please."

We were sitting on a couch, watching Iron Man and eating popcorn, when he suddenly spoke. "Carly? Can I ask you something?" I didn't even look at him, I was disturbed by the TV. "Mhmm.." was the only sound I was able to make. "Promise me you'll be totally honest" this caught my attention. I turned my head to him and promised him, that I'll be honest. "Fine. Once, when I came for ya, you had bruises all over your body. Then, the other time I came to your apartment to find that your father had beaten you.. How often does he do that?" I didn't expect this question. I was expecting something about my feelings, something about us... I swallowed. I didn't know if I wanted to tell him my biggest secret. I looked in his eyes and suddenly, I knew I had to tell him. I knew I had to feel safe with him, that he had the right to know about my past.

"Fine... I'll tell you the whole story, but, don't interrupt me!! So, it started when I was 12,...."

I end up crying in Harry's lap. It was so weird to talk about everything out loud... I was used to replay my memories in my head... but not like talk about them with anyone. I think I've never really talk about everything with my mum. We both knew what happened, we just wanted to forget it so we didn't talk about it. Now telling everything to Harry was soothing at one side, and scary at the other one. I wanted him to know everything, I was just scared how'd he react etc. "So he lives with you now?" he asked me. I heard anger in his voice. "Y..yeah, he does. He came to us and said that we had to let him stay.. We didn't have a choice." Harry's grip around my waist tightened. "I don't want you to go there again while he's living there!" Harry said through his clenched jaws. "And what am I supposed to do? Live somewhere else? Nice! First, I have no idea where and second.. WHAT ABOUT MY MUM!! I can't just let her there!" I wasn't screaming but I was quiet near to do that!

"You both can stay here, I'm not letting you go there again Carolina!" now he was yelling. "It's not that easy! Gosh, are you even listening to me? He's dangerous even for you Harry! He'd kill you if he found out that we're staying at your place! No way. And besides that, he's acting more normal lately. It's not so bad, really." I tried to calm him down, but I didn't succeed. "Not bad? Are you fucking serious?" he yelled and stood up. I saw that he's furious in that moment. Suddenly he crashed his hand through the wall... When he put it out, his hand was bleeding. "Harry!!" I yelled and rushed to him. He wanted to push me away, but I didn't let him. "Stop it, you're hurting yourself..." he didn't even look at me. "...you're scaring me, Harry. Please...." I whispered it. He closed his eyes and shook his head. "I didn't mean to scare you Carly, but... how can you even say that it's not that bad? He's hurting you..."

I hugged him around his neck and made him to look at me. "Hey, I'll be fine. I am fine now. But I'd feel better if you didn't hurt yourself. Come... let's clean your hands." I caught his hand and pulled him into bathroom. He didn't protest and I was happy for that.

"It'll sting a bit. But you're a big boy, you'll be alright" I said him with a smile. He just pouted on me and he let me do my job- cleaning his hand. I pulled his hand under the water stream and he hissed. "Sorry, but it's necessary." I said with apologizing look. "I know, it's just not my favourite thing to do." "Really? And what is your favourite thing Harry?" I asked him nicely. I was actually bit horny... Having his hand in my hand, feeling his body warmth...  "I'm so glad you're asking Carly" Suddenly I was not holding his hand under the water, I was sitting on a sink with him, standing between my legs. He kissed me passionately and I obeyed. It was so good... he was so good. "I. NEED. YOU. NOW!!" he said between kisses. I felt the same. I needed him, not just some guy. Just Harry, my Harry.

We continued kissing each other adn we ended up making up in his bed...

"I wanted to wait, but you're irresistible Carly." Harry whispered in my ear while we were laying in a bed. "I was saying myself the same, like: you can't sleep with him Carly... But look at me! Here we are after some amazing sex!" I giggled. "Stay the night. please." he mumbled into my hair. "Mhmmm, I will!" I said and I felt that I'm falling asleep. "Goodnight Harry" ... "Goodnight Carly, sweet dreams baby!" The I let myself fall into those amazing dreams, where I pictured me and Harry being together and happy....

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