Stupid in Love

Hard without her

•Justin's POV•

The plane ride back to the states was the worst one yet. I regret stepping back on that jet and leaving her again. I could see the sadness across her features and it killed me knowing id have to wait months to even see her again.

10 minutes till landing.

10 minutes till I can sleep in my own bed again.

My phone vibrates in my pocket and when I take it out I see Selena wanting to FaceTime.

I slide my finger across the answer button and see her beautiful face pop into view.

"Heyyyy" she drags out and her smile is so big.

"Hey Sel. What's up?"

"Im with Taylor. Im visiting her in LA. You're landing soon, right?" She asks and I nod seeing Taylor in the background sipping on a drink.

So they've been drinking. Lovely.

"Come over.." She says quietly and I let out a breath not really feeling up to it.

"I thought you were on tour."

"I have two free days so I came back to LA." She says and then starts giggling for no reason.

"Please come over! All my girls are here and we want you here. You're the life of the party."

I consider it then slowly shake my head.

"I don't.. I don't know Sel.."

She starts begging but I tune her out when I get a text from Brinley that makes my heart drop.

Brin: I want to be just friends. Our lives are too different to be anything more. I'm sorry. I miss you. If you still want, I'll be at your show in a couple months. But I'm not ready to get involved in a serious relationship.

I furrow my eyebrows feeling the anger build up inside of me. What the fuck? Was she leading me on this whole fucking time?

"Jay, what's wrong?" Selena asks and I turn my attention back to her.

"Nothing. I land in 5, I'll be over there soon. Bye."

I hang up and try to call Brinley. She answers and it's quiet for a while so I speak up.

"Brin?" I ask and I can hear her breathing.

"Brin listen to me. You don't have to do this. We can make this work.. We can do it. Don't give up just yet."

"It's too much." She whispers quietly and I quickly shake my head even though she can't see me.

"Brinley Moore stop pulling this shit with me. You knew from day one how my life is. You fucking knew and you accepted me. You're the first person to actually accept me and you.. You broke down my walls in only a couple weeks. Just for the short time I was with you, I was the happiest. You can't just leave."

"I can't just leave? You mean like you left me all those years ago?"

I clench my jaw at her tone.

"I was doing what was best for me and my mom. You know that."

"And you know I don't want the fame. I don't want to be getting this unnecessary hate and I don't want to be attacked with cameras every time I walk out the door. You and Selena are perfect for each other Justin. She can deal with your life. But I can't."

"Look I know I'm asking a lot but if we wanna be together it'll take some sacrifices-"

"Friends, Justin. We're friends. I gotta go."