Stupid in Love

Old Wounds

•Brinley's POV•

The next morning I wake up pressed against something hard and my eyebrows furrow as I slowly feel around with my hand but stop when I realize I'm practically groping Justin's face. He groans and pushes my hand away as I sit up and glance over at him.

Why does he have to be so attractive?

I know I made these rules and everything but this little act I'm putting on for him isn't easy at all.

Especially when he goes along with it.

I let out a breath and move over as I straddle his lap and his eyes slowly open. His hands run up my thighs before he lets out a breath and also slightly sits up.

His eyes scan over my no makeup face and tangled hair but he still smiles at me the way he did every morning when we were together.

"Good morning beautiful. How'd you sleep? No more night terrors right?"

I shake my head and rest my hands on his chest.

"Nope."

We stare at each other in a comfortable silence before I finally say something that's been on my mind.

"So.. what exactly did you and Yovanna do last night?"

I trail my fingertips down his chest and look at him with teasing eyes but truth is I can't stand the thought of him being with another woman.

He glances at my hand before visibly swallowing hard meaning he's nervous.

"We uh.. we ate dinner and watched a movie."

"Mhmm, and what else?"

"She kissed me for a little bit." He admits and I glance at his eyes seeing them staring straight into mine.

"Did you like it?"

"Kinda." He says honestly making my stomach turn.

"And then what happened?" I ask and I'm shocked when his eyes don't leave mine as he answers immediately.

"I realized she wasn't you so I left."

"I..."

I close my mouth, not exactly sure of what to say.

"You're the only girl I want to be kissing baby."

I freeze when he flips us over on the bed, literally taking my breath away. He leans down close to me and I could feel his lips brushing against mine. The side of me I've tried to cover up is coming out.

The side that's completely in love with him is just scratching at the surface, ready to get out.

"You can't kiss me."

"Not right now." He says.

His eyes lock with mine and I immediately feel sad that I'll never actually have a normal relationship with him again.

He feels too guilty about our past and especially with his life, it's so hard.

"Her fingers aren't as gentle as yours. Her lips aren't as soft as yours. And she's not the girl I'm in love with. You are and you've always been."

I take his words in before I slowly shake my head.

"Stop."

"I can't. You drive me crazy in the best way Brinley."

I can already feel myself getting choked up.

"We can't."

"We can try again.. You came back to me for a reason. If you can look me straight in the face and tell me you aren't in love with me, then I'll drop the topic and never bring it up again. I'll stop pushing the limits of your rules. I'll stop begging for your attention. Just say it. Fuck, just say it so I know if I'm chasing after someone that doesn't feel the same."

I stare in his eyes seeing them desperate as he awaits my answer.

My baby...

No Brinley. Don't give in to this.

"I don't know what you want from me Justin.."

"I want you to tell me how you feel about me. Please, Brin. I'm begging at this point.."

"I.. I should go get ready."

He stares at me for a second longer before he nods and moves away from me. I quickly get off the bed and straighten out the hoodie I got from the dryer last night.

"Thanks for.. letting me sleep in here."

I walk out of the room before he can say anything else and my heart is literally beating so fast I don't think it's normal.

It's hard knowing he still wants me in a romantic way.

I just don't think I can handle a relationship with him right now..

I'm not ready to open up old wounds.

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We're at a post show celebration in Vegas and honestly I think the guy next to me has been purposely adding more vodka into my drink because I feel drunk as hell.

My suspicion is confirmed when I go to stand up but stumble back and start laughing for absolutely no reason.

I glance back at Justin in the VIP section and watch him sip on his water as girls drape all over him. I frown and slowly make my way to him.

I push passed all the girls and ignore their yells as I sit on Justin's lap and move close to him.

"You're so warm." I mutter and cuddle to his chest making him laugh.

"You're so drunk."

"Maybe." I smile at him making him smirk slightly as he shakes his head and grabs the drink from my hand.

"No more."

"Fine, whatever you say."

My arms drape around his neck and I bite my lip as I stare up at him.

"I have to tell you a secret." I whisper and he nods; waiting for me to continue.

"I hate Yovanna with a passion and I'm annoyed that she got to kiss you. And I'm even more annoyed that you enjoyed it. I'm the only girl you should enjoy kissing."

"You're not showing that you're interested in me Brin. I'm trying to make you happy. If I try to be with you, you're upset. If I try to be with other women, you're upset. I just don't know what you want me to do."

"Isn't it obvious? I love you Justin. I wouldn't have come on tour with you if I didn't."

I rest my forehead against his as I really feel the kick of the alcohol.

"I just don't want to pretend anymore. It's so tiring. I want you to be only mine."

"Let's get outta here." He says quietly and grips my waist as we get out of the booth of the VIP section.

When we get back on the bus, Justin leads me into my room and helps me in bed. I notice him set some pain killers and a glass of water next to my bed before he sits down beside me.

"Can I ask you something?" He asks and I giggle at his cute little face.

"Of course."

"Do I still have a chance with you? Is it worth it if I keep trying to be with you or am I just gonna end up disappointed?"

I can tell he's upset making me pout.

"One thing I can promise is that you still have my heart Justin. Always."

I reach over and grab his hand.

"Will you wait for me?" I ask.

"Always."

A/N: how cute omfg I love them ❤️❤️❤️