CHANGE ME [DISCONTINUED]

38. "She thought you were dead,"

Daisyrae:

Hearing those three words brought me two feelings. Happiness and Confusion. I was happy because he felt this way towards me. What girl wouldn't be happy when their boyfriend said that they loved them? I was confused, because I didn't know whether or not I wanted to say it back. Yes, I did have strong feelings for Jason, but I haven't determined them just yet.

I shut my eyes, not being able to look at him. I knew I only had a few minutes to gather all of my feelings for Jason. In those few minutes, I had to figure out whether or not I loved him and also decided whether or not what he wanted to know.

I could feel him getting impatient next to me and I knew that it was a matter of time before he started to get upset. Jason had a bad habit. Whenever he made a mistake or when he was embarrassed, he'd just flip out. I guess he didn't really know how to deal with his feelings, but that was something that he always did.

In all honesty, it didn't take me as long to figure out what I wanted to say to Jason than I thought it would. I haven't really thought hard about this, but my feelings for him were pretty clear. He was special to me and I truly did love him.

I slowly opened up my eyes; "I love you too," I watched as the frown disappeared on his face, being replaced with his beautiful smile. He quickly enveloped me in his arms, pulling me close to his chest.

"I thought you weren't going to say it back," He mumbled. He was speaking quietly and I had a feeling he didn't really intend for me to hear his words. I ignored them.

"I love you," He grinned, pulling back from the hug to look me in the eyes; "I love you," I giggled, shaking my head from side to side. He leaned down, pressing his lips down on mine. His lips tasted sweeter than usual, felt softer than usual.

The kiss started out slow and innocent, but something clicked in his head causing him to pull me closer to him by my hips. He slowly slid his tongue between my lips, his hands slowly dropping from my hips to my butt.

He squeezed it in both of his hands, earning a giggle from me. I pulled away from his lips, shaking my head; "My mom is right there," I nodded towards the living room where my mother was still laying on the couch.

Loosing Terence had hit her hard and I understood why. She lost her husband the same way she lost her boyfriend. That must be unbelievably painful. I felt for her, don't get me wrong. But, it wasn't hitting me hard. Terence seemed like an okay guy, but I never really liked him to begin with.

I was trying my hardest not to think about the whole situation. Thinking about it just brought back the memory of my father and that was something I was not trying to relive right now. No, not today.

"So what? She won't hear anything," Jason moved in, going to press a kiss to my lips. I quickly turned my head, his lips catching my cheek instead; "Jason, no." I spoke sternly, giving him my best serious face.

He groaned, stepping back from me. "Fine, fine." He ran both of his hands through his hair, leaning back against the counter; "You owe me a makeup date," He stated, looking over at me.