It's Not Love (Book 2)

15 - "I can't take it anymore!"

I turned on season 1 episode 1 and Supernatural Saturdays began again.

Welcome back to INL! The song in the media is If They Knew - Joel Faviere It's helped me personally a few times, you should listen to it; its a good song.

Anygay, this chapter I honestly have no idea what I'm going to write so I hope it turns out well! GET READING!

Darcy's p.o.v

"This was amazing but I've gotta go," Landon said with a yawn.

"OK I'll see you around," I yawned. We hugged and he left. I went upstairs and picked up Delilah from her cot. "Hey baby girl," I smiled. "I just.. I wanted you to know that mommy loves you very, very much OK darling?" I whispered as tears began streaming down my face. I kissed her forehead before placing her back in the cot. "I love you," I said before walking away from the cot. I grabbed a pen and paper and began writing. I wiped my cheeks with shaky hands and walked towards the kitchen. I left the note on the counter and placed my wallet, keys, and cell phone beside it. I walked out the front door and began walking towards my safe place, the bridge.

Third person p.o.v

Louis giggled as Harry kissed his neck while he unlocked the door.

"Harry! Stop it!" Louis giggled loudly. He finally got the door open and they hung their coats. "Darcy, we're back!" He yelled, but there was no response. "Darcy?!"

"Where would she go?" Harry questioned.

"I don't know," Louis responded. They walked into the kitchen and saw the note, wallet, keys, and cell phone. "Why would she leave this here?" He questioned. He picked up the note amd began reading it.

"Dear mum and dad,

I can't handle it anymore. He has promised so many times that he wouldn't do it again, and he lied. Please don't come looking for me, I don't want you to see me like that. Tell Jack and Landon that I love them. I'm gonna miss you guys so much.

You never noticed but I was always depressed, I didn't eat and I cut myself many, many times, but I was always so good at hiding it. This is NOT your fault, OK? The scars on my arms bring back so many bad memories. I was never on the football team I was bullied; I won't tell you why cause I know it will break your hearts. I wore baggy clothes so you couldn't see my body. I was unhealthily skinny, you could see my ribs and my hip bones, my legs never touched one another; it was getting bad. I began to relapse after I had Delilah and then the thing with Jack... I can't handle the stress. The bridge was the place I would hide, it was my safe place. Please take care of Delilah, don't let Jack have her, please don't. I love you guys so, so, so much. I hope to see you again one day.

All the love,
Darcy"

"Oh my god! No!" Louis yelled. "We have to find her!" He yelled handing Harry the note. He finished reading it and they both grabbed their phones dialing numbers and asking where she could have gone.

Darcy's p.o.v

I ran my fingers across the wood of the bridge as the tears streamed down my face. I climbed up so I was standing and took a deep breathe and looked at the bottom; rocks were all you could see.

"Please keep my family safe," I whispered as I prepared to jump.

"Hey! What are you doing?!" A frantic voice yelled. I looked over and saw a black figure.

"What does it look like?! I don't belong here anymore, I'm worthless! Who's gonna miss me?!" I sobbed.

"What about your family?!" They yelled.

"They're better without me!" I yelled. I looked back to the bottom and as I was about to jump strong arms wrapped around me; they pulled me down from the railing and I sobbed into their chest.

"You can't jump, you can't," and that's when I realized it was Landon.

"I can't take it anymore!"

"I can't live without you, Darcy, I can't," he said. I pulled away and tried to climb back up.

"Please let me finish what I came here to do," I cried. He held me tighter as I sobbed violently into his chest. "I can't do this anymore, I just... I can't,"

"Please don't leave me, I love you,"

"No you don't," I pulled away. "You deserve someone who isn't worthless and stupid and ugly and fat!" I sobbed.

"You are beautiful and smart and worth the whole world," he said. "Your parents called me crying and I was still around and I knew this was always your safe place,"

"You shouldn't have come, you should have let me die,"

"I couldn't let the most beautiful girl in the world die, now could I?"

"I love you too," I said. He kissed me on the lips and it was like fireworks; much better than kissing Jack. I wrapped my arms around his neck and deepened the kiss.

"You mean so much to me," he said. "You have no idea how long I've waited to do that,"

"I can't, I have Jack," I pulled away. "I'm fucking married, what the hell is wrong with me?!" I yelled angrily. "I fucking did it again! I'm the worst wife ever!" I cried.

"Did what again?"

"I cheated on Jack," I cried. "First Perrie now you, what kind of wife am I?!" I sobbed. "I'm so selfish! I almost left my daughter motherless and fatherless! What's wrong with me?!"

"You're perfect to me. Everybody makes mistakes, that's life. And your 'husband' is a terrible man," he said. "You are an amazing mother and anyone would be lucky to have you,"

"Stop lying,"

"I'm not lying, you truly are beautiful and I love you," he said.

"You can't!" I yelled. "You can't love me, I'm fucking married!"

"You can get a divorce," he suggested. "We can be happy!"

"No, I have to make things right," I said standing. "Im so sorry, I need to find Jack!" I yelled. I ran down the street to find Jack and away from Landon.

~Authors note~

Well holy shit! I didn't even expect that! Like wow 0.0 dude.

Anygay, I hope you enjoy this chapter and hope to see you in the next one!

Bye!