I Dare You

Chapter 16

7.30pm Mia had left early so I spent the last few minutes lying in bed, thinking. I had never looked at a girl this way before, never would I think it would be Mia Brown. I wondered what it would be like a few years ago, if I had met her earlier. She would still be uneasy of herself, having many wonders. If I had met her earlier, would it make any difference? Would I care to get to know her? Or would I be careless and sleep with her, and move on? To be honest with myself, I am thankful. Thankful that Jax chose her for my dare, if he chose some other girl I would of had her in bed within 24 hours. Mia is different, you have to work for her. You need to play the game harder, but now I had seem to forgotten all about the dare. 

Mia was hurt enough, she lost her father and best friend. I didn't want her hating the world even more. She didn't deserve this, now that I think of it, no girl should. If Ava did that to me I would have felt worthless, after what she did to Ryan, it killed him. He was lost and it was hard for him to find his feet again. 

I thought about calling the dare off again, not because I hated Mia, but that I didn't want her feeling anymore pain. It felt weird thinking about it, I never thought I'd care about anyone's feelings before. Mia seemed special and different, her different seemed unique. She knew what she wanted and wasn't letting anyone stand in her way. Thats what I liked about her. She would stand up for her self with confidence without shame, and there was times where she would remain calm, peaceful and doze off into her own visions. She wasn't too confident or cocky she left space for kindness and wisdom. I'd never came across a girl like this, but I'm thankful I did.

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Me: Hey, I was thinking about calling the dare off again. 

Jax: What changed your mind?

Me: I don't want to hurt Mia, shes a cool chick. 

Jax: Don't tell me you like her

Me: I don't, I just care for her. So?

Jax: Fine, do you want me to chose another girl?

Me: No, I don't want to do it to any girl. 

Jax: What about my sister?

I thought about what he asked me. What about Ava?  I had all of a sudden forgotten about her until he said her name. I was clueless about Ava, I didn't know what I thought of her now. I couldn't believe I was choosing her over Mia, but Mia was different. I'd never found that "different" until now. Mia was always in my head and Ava wasn't anywhere to be heard of. Did I really want Ava, or was I in a rush to sleep with her? I didn't want to let go of Mia, there was of her to discover. Ava seemed the same as every other girl, pretty, member of the cheer leading squad and mean. Mia wasn't like everyone else, she was like herself - beautiful, funny kind,  and mysterious. If I chose Ava I would be sick and tired of the same things. I had focused on sleeping with girls so bad and dumping them later that I wasn't leaving any space for love. 

I was falling for Mia just like how I fell for all the others. Except the only thing I did with the others was get drunk and sleep together. With Mia, I feel that I can do more things, go and adventures and do fun things that don't need to be all about sleeping with each other.

I liked Mia, but I wasn't at the stage where I could say I loved her, we only just met. Even though I don't love her, theres many things about to to be loved. I lover her singing like no ones around, I love her sarcasm, her confidence, beauty and her sick skills she does on the field. 

Mia told me she's never had a boyfriend before, I don't want to force her into a relationship or anything but she deserves a shot at love. With or without me, I want to see her happy, after all she went through she deserves some joy in life. If only everybody knew what she was going through, and how talented she was, they would have though twice about her. If only I did noticed her before I became a jerk and player, everything would be different. I wouldn't be playing all these girls and doing dares like what I'm doing to her right now. 

Mia could of been in love by now, going out with friends and doing stupid things together. But she doesn't. If she wants love, I'll give her love. Friends, I'll be her friend. Wants to do stupid things, I'll show her.