The First Smile, Reborn

A Lost Heart

(Sukimi's POV)

I looked to Lu to see her hopeful smile. My heart pulled at it as if it was dragging me on, and on, forever. I couldn't help but even feel a little giddy. I could see a little bit of light fill Rosemary's cheeks, it was almost adorable to see her like that. I smiled and finally spoke up. "Well what are we waiting for?" I had a bit of enthusiasm in my voice to make it sound like I was pumped, I was, but I was a bit.. Terrified. Me and Rosemary couldn't even beat Add in a fight, what gave Eve the thought that we could SAVE him?! Was Eve this crazy for him or what?! Well.. I can't say I wouldn't be the same way. Because I would be the same way. We started heading back to the house to gather our things, we were going on our first journey. We needed food for energy, and some sort of light source. But what was driving me crazy was the smell of human flesh, I was trying my best to keep myself composed and collected, but I felt like I was going to go crazy if I didn't eat any human flesh. "Ugh.. I'm starving!" I looked over to Rosemary, who had a hand on her stomach, and a fist in the air. I laughed, "Just wait till we get there, then get food." She gave her goofy grin, "But I don't want to wait!" She puffed her cheeks out to me and I pinched one of them really hard, "Calm down. We're almost there." Ciel looked back at us and gave me a soft smile, I couldn't help but let a blush go across my face.

As we finally reached the house, Rosemary was the first one in, of course. We first started to pack, and then I saw a picture of me and Rosemary. It was when we were younger, just little kids. Funny, we knew nothing of the world, nothing of how cruel it could be, or how harmful it could hurt. I really didn't want to deal with pressure from other people, but I did. I felt pressure even now, we had to save Add. We were the only ones that could. What are we going to do? What more could we do? It's his fault he's in this mess, not ours. So why do we have to save him? And why do I feel at fault? I shook my head roughly to shake off the thoughts, now was not the time to think negatively, I didn't want to weigh everyone down after all. I finally finished packing and walked out to the living room with my stuff. "We all set?" I chirped out, Lu looked to me and smiled, "Yep! Me and Ciel finished packing, luckily Rosemary didn't have much to pack so she got finished in a jiffy!" She gave out a small giggle and held Ciel's hand. I almost grew jealous, but realized that they had a contract together so it was normal, I think. "As long as I have Ciel with me, I'll be okay!" She looked up to him proudly and gave him a loving smile, he gave her a soft gaze with passion, I almost wanted to dart at her. 

Finally, we walked out, said bye to the house, and headed towards the El Gang. I was almost afraid about what the El Gang would think about me and Rosemary, only Lu, Ciel, Eve, and Add knew us anyway. We weren't "popular".

Finally we reached the El Gang, and had headed in. I was nervous but tried my best. "M-My name is Sukimi Casuto. I hope we get along." And I gave them a small smile, of course Rosemary made this big speech and over-exaggerated, but she was adorable. "Well, what do we do?" Lu finally spoke up. Elsword, Aisha, and Rena looked at her. "We don't know yet.. But I've come to the conclusion that possibly, maybe, he's lost his heart." 

"What?!?" We all exclaimed at Elsword's sudden accusation. "He's going mad right? He's lost the truth to what he wants and what everyone wants. He lost his heart, in terms, he's lost feeling to anything really. He reacts like he would react to any ordinarily situation, of course if it comes to feelings, he'll attack because he's lost. That's only natural for a madman isn't it?" Was it? What was I hearing? I didn't know what to believe and Elsword was throwing everything all of a sudden. I was confused, but a part of me knew what he was talking about. Rosemary sat back and closed her eyes, "Your saying he's basically unconscious in terms of feelings, right? His mind is still active, but his body acts on impulse. Not because he wants it to." Everything was starting to come together. "But how is that even possible??!" I couldn't keep quiet anymore. Everyone looked to me and Ciel leaned forward, "It means, he's basically lost feeling to feel, which means he can't feel in a way. But that also means he can't control his feelings, that's where he goes mad. But his mind is still there, he can think, but he's acting all on impulse." I finally nodded my head, now getting it. Add lost it. Because of Eve. Was his feelings for her.. That powerful?