I kissed the scars on her skin

Chapter 18

When the day of our show came I was both excited and nervous. I didn't know what to expect from the people who would be watching.

Or what to expect from myself. I was scared at what people might think of us. Or of me . I've never preformed in front of a crowd before.

Wait yes I have on my birthday . When I was trying out my guitar for the first time. When I looked at my guitar I saw my brother with his own.

When I looked at my guitar I saw Jaime . He was the one who gave it to me. I guess I have him to thank for my membership in the band.

But he would've said I got in it all on my own. It was true i got in on talent and skills but it was he who gave me the guitar to do so.

When I got out of the shower I looked at Flower who was sitting on my bed. I slept with him every night so I wasn't scared of being in my room alone.

In a way it was like I was sleeping next to Jaime again. I felt calm and relaxed. I was no longer afraid of my dreams. I still woke up in the middle of the night but  I wasn't afraid of them anymore.

I still heard voices but I've been trying to ignore them. I've learned that it doesn't matter what they say I love myself.

When I had finished getting dressed I went up to their room so we could head down to breakfast.

I knocked on their door and waited for them to open it. When it did open I was rushed inside by Emily.

" Cassidy I'm so excited!" Emily yells

" shh keep your voice down do you want to wake the rest of the hotel up?" I ask

" Of course I do." Emily states

" Well they're going to be surprised when they hear Ginger sing." Zara says coming into the room

" Speaking of Ginger where is she?" I ask

Zara jerks her head back indicating she's in the other room. The hotel rooms have a separate place for sleeping.

I start to head over to the door. But when my hand is on the handle Zara clears her throat.

" Are you sure you want to go in there?" Zara asks

" yea how bad can it be?" I say

I open the door to a pitch black room. I look around and there's Ginger in the corner flipping out. She had her knees up to her chest and was rocking back and forth.

I turn on the lights and she squints in surprise. It looked like she had been crying too. Then it struck me . Ginger was nervous.

I crouch down in front of her and she looks up at me. She smiles weakly and looks back down.

" How are you feeling?" I ask

That was a stupid question but I wasn't exactly good at this either. I was always the one in trouble that I never really got a chance to comfort everyone.

" Not good ." Ginger says

" You nervous?" I ask

" Yes. I'm scared Cassidy . What if no one likes us?" Ginger asks

" You just got to believe that there's people that will like us." I say

" I've never preformed for a lot of people before." Ginger confesses

" Well this is just the start . It only gets easier after this." I say

" And what if it gets harder?" Ginger asks

" Then you have us as friends to help you." I say

She hugs me and wipes her tears away. I help her up and she dusts off her outfit for today.