Its a very tiring day. There are a lot of costumer in the cafe and then a bunch of kids in the amusement park keeps on kicking me while I'm a mascot. Oh well its really hard to earn a money.
Sometimes I'm wishing that I'm a daughter of a rich family so I don't have to do all of this hard work. It's very tiring to be on your own in a far place, away from your family and friends..
I get up and decided to check on my facebook to catch up with my friends. And then a person suddenly crosses my mind.. I've been waiting for that person to come and see me. I've been waiting for that person to tell me that he is choosing me..
I immediately type his name (we are not friends in facebook but we sometimes exchange messages in email, another reason why I'm holding on to him is because of those conversation I'm hoping that I still have a special place in his heart)
When I see his profile, suddenly all the hopes were gone. He is smiling and a pretty girl sits beside him. They look so happy...
And I'm not...
For 5 years I've been hoping. Now all of it was gone...
And for the last time, I cried the whole night. Grieving for the love that could have or should have been..
I'm having a hard time in my life and they are happy... I started to pity myself but then a I realize that wonderful things will surely happen to me too.
He moved on, my turn.
