I grew up working hard for things. You know my mother left me when I was young and I grew up with my Grandmother and Aunt. The person whose suppose to love me was not there... so I grew up without a normal family and with a lot of trust issues too.
Most of the time I blame myself when things go wrong, most of the time I'm thinking if I deserve happiness. As I grew older I learn to love myself..but I can't stop asking myself this question..am I worth it?
Maybe the reason why I can't let go of my first love for a very long time is because he is the first person who looks at me in the eye like I'm so beautiful and I can't forget about that. I know I moved on but maybe he don't deserve someone like me and I'm happy that he is happy now
"Penny for your thought?" Yurika sit beside me
"Hey" I smile at her
"Why did you run away last night?"
"Me? Run away?" I look at her "Hello!! I feel like I want to vanish from this universe!"
"And why do you want to vanish?"
"Because you are making fun of me"
"I am not making fun of you! I am helping you!"
"What help?"
"Your prince charming"
"As if he will like me, I'm just Jinyi"
"Why wouldn't he like you, that's it your Jinyi so why wouldn't he like you"
"Yurika I know I'm telling you about your cousin a lot, but those are like dreams and this is reality"
"Everything is possible, your dream may do come true"
"We live in two different world Yurika"
"Two different world? My cousin is not an alien or an angel. He is a normal human being like you and me. That other world that you are talking about its his job, its just make believe"
"So what do you want me to do?"
"What do you want to do with this chance Jinyi?" she ask back
"I..." I look down because honestly I don't know what to say
"You deserve to be happy no matter what all the people say"
"Am I worth it?" I suddenly ask her
"Of course you are! You are worth it" she hold my hand
"Thank you" I smile at my friend
"You will have a date with him tomorrow" she whisper
"What???"
"You are worth it" she wink at me and pretend to read her book
"Yurika!"
"I am studying" she turn her back at me
"Yeah I'm worth it" I whisper to myself and smile
