Just Jay Things

I'm so stupid...

Ugh. I still have a tiny crush on this guy. But he likes my best friend sierra_reads_2015. We had a convo today and he was trying to get a Wattpad account...just to give me a follow. I MEAN WHO DOESN'T LIKE A NICE GUY LIKE THAT??? Ugh. I've only known him for about a year and I can't believe I like him. And in attempt to cover up my feelings, I shipped him with said best friend. She REALLY is my best friend, but I can't help but feel jealous. I had a crush on this one guy in elementary and he liked someone else, same thing happened again. I want to stop this. That's why I prefer fictional guys better. I can write fanfics about them and it won't be creepy. They will never leave me...but I want to know what it's like to be in a romantic relationship. Someone you can always turn to...and someone you can lean on. And in the back of my mind...I kinda want someone to sing duets with. I know...this isn't high school musical...but I've always wanted someone to be the other half of the song. And we can laugh and enjoy it together. I think he does know that I like him, but he probably likes my BFF better. And I'll really miss him when I move. I hope he's happy tho. I hope he finds the right girl. -Jay