My definition of love :A Zayn Malik and One Direction Fan Fiction

Scared of losing you

Chapter thirty-two

Tyler's Pov

I Walked back into the house after waving goodbye to the lads, I felt sick to the stomach still after hearing Zayn's words. It wasn't the fact that Zayn said that, it was the reality that I might lose Zayn and that would break my heart into tiny pieces I just couldn't deal with that.

"Tyler are you okay?" Courtney asked with a worried tone as she stepped closer trying to hug me, but as she moved closer I moved away before walking out of the house with my keys as I hoped into the car going to the only place that I used to come to all the time.

I drove down the busy roads in silence as my mind raced with possibilities of what would happen now Zayn is away, just the thought of him leaving me made me feel weak as I slumped in my seat as my eyes threatened to let tears spill, but I won't let that happen I hate showing my emotions it makes me feel so small.

Soon I had finally reached the place that I loved, I hoped out of the car and over looked the dazzling field which lay in front of me. The slight breeze made the long grass sway peacefully as I walked slowly through the field. I came to a stop as I found a wide enough space in the grass before I danced.

My body moved with the wind as I let myself go, and get carried away with my steps, the wind made me feel free as I spun countless times humming to Autumn Leaves by Ed Sheeran. I didn't realise I was crying until a giant gush of wind came and made my tears burn cold lines on my face, all of this made me feel free as I closed my eyes and kept dancing, the humming turned into singing as I belted out the words with as much strength as I had. I jumped slightly when I heard my ringtone go off so I walked over to my phone and looked at the Id and it was Zayn.

"Hello ?" I answered wiping the cold tears away with my free hand.

"Tyler ! Oh gosh baby the girls told me that you ran out after I left! I'm so sorry!" Zayn screamed through the phone as he chocked at the end obviously crying which is something he never does.

"Zayn I'm fine" I answered shortly.

"No no your not Tyler! I know you better then I know myself and I can tell if your sad I know that i shouldn't of said what i did and I'm really sorry Tyler, I love you so much I can't lose you!" Zayn cried loudly.

"Zayn calm down!" I hissed through the phone. "I forgive you I already told you that, I love you to baby so calm down. I'm just upset because I'm scared of losing you! I know that you didn't mean what you said but Zayn,

I- I'm scared" I broke down crying as I dropped to the floor pulling my legs to my chest.

"Baby don't be scared! We will be together for ever please forget about the stupid shit I said! I know I fucked up but please don't be scared because I will never ever stop loving you!" Zayn yelled.

"Okay Zayn, I need to go it's already getting late and it's freezing out here! And Zayn I promise that I forgive you don't worry!" I pleaded to Zayn as I wiped my tears away.

"Okay beautiful I love you so much Tyler your my world and I already miss you so much! I'm going to get you tickets for a few shows so we can see each other okay? I love you baby girl stay strong for me and never give up on us!" Zayn spoke through the phone.

"I promise I won't if you don't either! I love you Zayn" I answered with a smile.

"Bye baby I will text you later!" Zayn called before saying another 'I love you' before hanging up.I took a deep breath and stood up with a smile on my face, I had no reason to be scared anymore because Zayn never let me down. Not even when times were as tough as ever he still made sure I was okay and safe and I really can't thank him enough for it.

I walked back over to the car and began to drive home, even though it wasn't really home without Zayn, at least I had Charles and the girls there with me. I stopped on the way home to grab a few tubs of Ben and Jerry's, some hot chocolates and films before pulling up in the drive way as the girls ran out of the house.

"Tyler! Are you okay?

"Where were you?"

"Did you get my messages?"

"We missed you!"

All the girls were yelling these sentences as they surrounded me drowning me in hugs, I laughed at them grabbing the things from the car before walking inside.

"Girls chill! I just went out for a breather everything is fine!" I answered with a giggle as I set up the lounge room to watch the films.

"We were worried Tyler you just ran out" Antonia answered with a sad expression, I looked around at the girls which all had sad or worried expression shown on there faces. It was nice to know that they cared for me but I really didn't think it was that much of a big deal.

"I'm sorry for walking out I just needed to think but I'm back now and I've brought both of the Mean Girls films and Love Actually plus some goodies so stop being party poopers and join me?" I said with a smirk gesturing to the lounge room which was now set up perfectly. The girls quickly grinned excitedly and cheered as they all hugged me before sitting down and pressing play.

"Ahh I love this movie so much! It's such a classic!" Antonia squealed as Love Actually started playing, It made me giggled at how much she sounds like Harry.

"You sound so much like Harry!" Dani and I coursed with big smirks as Antonia blushed.

"Alright enough boy talk! Boys are yucky!" Eleanor yelled as she turned her face up in disgust.

"Haha yeah says the one with love bites all over there neck!" I blurted out with a wink before falling off the couch when a pillow came flying at me. Yeah thanks El.

"Hey! Says you who has them all over you aswell!" El laughed as she helped me back up. We all laughed as we kept taking about everyday things before we were on to the last movie and everyone was either asleep or practically asleep, I crawled of the couch to tired to care as I turned the television and grabbed Charles before crawling back and cuddling with the dog, and just thinking about how today actually turned out really good in the end knowing that I didn't have to be scared.

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A/N: I know boring boring boring! I'm sorry I know this chapter sucks! But I promise it will get better! I would like to thank everyone for reading I don't think I have done that for quite awhile so thank you! Love you guys keep voting, sharing, commenting and reading! I will try and update quicker this time and will make it interesting! Xx