Callie's Story

Finding a reason why

Break quickly pursued the lesson and everyone rushed out into the day light, wishing that school would just be over so they could all go home to bed or a hot chocolate. I was one of them wishing that it was the end of the day, but unfortunately, like normal, it wasn't the end of the day and there was still 3 hours roughly to go.

Shoving my hands into my blazer pockets, I followed the crowd outside, quickly catching up with Duncan and his mates. I slid my arm through his, and smiled. He smiled in return and gave me a small kiss on the lips. It was a daily thing that made it easy for me to cope with a few lessons without seeing him. We carried on walking with his friends, before he muttered something to them and we stopped but his friends carried on. I gave him a curious look, searching for some sort of answer that may have been on his face. Nothing. He was good at hiding things and he was fidgeting about, trying to find a comfortable place to stand. I, however, was getting rather impatient and grabbed him by the shoulders.

"Dammit, Duncan. Just tell me what's wrong. It can't be that stupid can it?", I roughly shook him and then let him go awaiting his answer. There had to be a reason that he was giving me the silent treatment. "You're not breaking up with me are you?"

Duncan, shocked that I had suggested this, shook his head and then opened his mouth. "It's about Anna.. and me. I don't know how it happened. She just came onto me. I was drunk and flirted back and it all went from there," He spilled out all this information in a rush, running a hand through his hair. Like he does when he's nervous about something. I just stood there, wondering whether to take this information as a joke or take it for the truth.

So instead of storming of like I usually would have done, I just sort of smiled at him as if to say 'hey, you're kidding and that can't of really happened between you two' and looked at him for confirmation of what I really was thinking. He just shrugged, wondering if he should say any more.

"Look... Callie... I-I don't want this to come between us, but if it has.. then well....", Duncan dragged his sentence on, making the situation worse. He was starting to annoy me. I knew she had to move away, get away from everything that has just happened. So, I did what the I thought I needed to. Walk away.

Without saying a word to him, I walked away, not looking back but looking forward and just wanting to gather my own resources and find out if it really was true. Because, I couldn't really understand why he would do something like that when he knew that Anna was my bestfriend and maybe he was doing it because he did fancied or liked her.

"Callie! Wait up. Let me explain! Please?!" I heard him calling, but I couldn't go back. It would just upset me. I'd hit out, trying to find out reasons why. I needed to find Anna. I needed to understand why she did it or didn't do it. Knowing Anna, she'd say it wasn't true and say that Duncan was trying to break up with me by feeding me a stupid excuse that would hurt me and convince me to break up with him. But maybe, just maybe, this wasn't true. I knew Duncan. Duncan loved me. Didn't he?

Thoughts were running through my brain, driving me crazy. I was breaking in half, one side of me wanting to believe Duncan and say "It's ok, it was just some drunken thing that happened. I can forgive you" and the other side wanting to say "It's just too much for me. You couldn't have done this to me. It's just not right" and dump him. But that wouldn't be right. I was 'in love' with him and he with me. It was too much for me. I can't deal with this. Maybe I should go to the office and say "I feel ill, May I go home please?" but I know what would happen. They would say no, send me back to break or class. No one would believe me. My whole world is crashing down in front of me. Blurring at the sides.

Someone tapped me on the arm, I hadn't realised I had stopped in the middle of the pathway towards one of the doors. “Sorry, I-er.. I was just going to move out of your way…” I trailed off turning round to find it was him. Duncan. “Oh! What do you want?!” I turned my voice into accusing. Why would he catch up to me? Why?! Just Why?! Didn’t he know that I was still annoyed with him?

“Listen, Callie.. Please! I didn’t mean to. It just happened that night. You were drunk and had gone home and well, it was just a group of us left and Anna took her chance. You know she did it to come between us..” Duncan babbled, hoping that I’d see what he meant and hopefully forgive him. As if!

I’d forgive but never forget. He looked at me, with his sweet puppy eyes that he’d give me if I was being a bit harsh on him or he was playing around when he wanted something to go his way.

“Listen, it’s time for class and I’ve got to go. This is an important class for me and I wish to go to it. Find me at Lunch. Maybe we can sort things out then,” I told him this with a matter of importance, before turning back around and walking briskly through the doors of towards my lesson. I had ICT. This was one of the lessons I didn’t have with either Anna or Duncan. Finally a break from them both. It was hard just even dealing with one of them on their own. Then again, that person is generally Anna when I’m with her. Duncan is an easy and loveable person to understand. Crap… I’m thinking about him.

I took my seat in ICT, once I’d realized I had gotten to the class and I sighed. Why couldn’t someone come along and cheer me up now I was here? But would I confess and let them help me? No way. That was out of the question.