Her Guardian (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

46: Stockholm Sydrome

"Baby look what you've done to me."

Song: Stockholm Sydrome
Artist: One Direction

Anastasia POV's:

Sadness along with betrayed; that what I felt when I saw the pictures of Harry. Whipping my tears away, I tried to stay strong, no matter what happens I should stay strong, this cruel world will surprise me even more, I knew it, but I didn't want to admit it.

I couldn't bring myself to believe what I saw. Everything sounded like a dream to me, a cruel dream I wanted to wake-up from, but reality immediately sank in making sure to bring back feelings of pain and loss. 

I saw him happy, I saw him giving her money, he allowed her to touch him, he allowed her to talk to him. He did it. And I couldn't bring myself to believe it. My head was spinning around with thousands thoughts again, I felt pain eating my heart and whole body. I felt achinnes running wildly through my body, I was in a huge surprise, and there wasn't enough words to describe what I felt when my eyes spotted those pictures.

I didn't have the right to complain, after all I was just a doll, and he owned me. He had the right to do whatever he pleased, he had the right to go out with whoever he wanted, he had the right to sleep and foll around with whoever he layed his eyes on. I felt pain, so much pain which made me go running to William, without even thinkinh about the outcome.

Eventhough I was still afraid of him, Harry's warning still fresh at the back of my head, but I still somehow wanted to meet him. Curiousness was killing me, I wanted to know why he sent me those pictures, I knew he wouldn't help a helpless and fragile girl like me, along with my needs to make Harry jealous, I knew when he will hear about me going to meet William, he will lose his shit.

I questioned myself over and over again, but I still don't get why William did that to me, I met him only once, yet I assumed that he sent me those pictures to show me what I wasn't aware of. I was still afraid of him, but I couldn't deny that I was glad because he sent me those picture. Awarness crushed me immeidately, showing me what I represent to Harry.

There was Harry on the back of my head agains't my will making chills to immediately run throughout me. Our intimidate moment sent my body on fire again, althought what he had, I couldn't bear myself to stop thinking about it the whole night. His whispers were still fresh through my ears reminding me of turning him on. The whole thing was unsual to me, I had never been that close to someone before nor made them feel something, lust was obvious trought his words as he spoke as well as throught his actions. The whole thoughts made my heart melt in nervousness, which made me get ride of them, those pictures William showed me made that activity to feel like a faded memory, every time I think about it I feel dirty and unwanted, I made sure to get ride of it, even thought I wasn't able to.

Flashbacks again from last night made my mind spinning with thoughts of Perrie's incident. I couldn't believe that Zayn who seemed such a gentelman to turn into reckless and heartless man. The way he acted yesterday toward Perrie was absolutely without thinking nor caring abour her feelings. I just can't stand him any longer for what he has done. Her pale face still fresh at the back of my head when we bought her home the previous night. She was so heartbroken, accepting her request was a bad decision, I regreted it. She was the one who ended up heartbroken, but here I am feeling ten time worse than what she felt. Another new made my heart melt, I saw her just a few times but I felt like I know her for ages, Perrie informed us that she was going to move back to her hometown, which happens to be London. She told us the previous night that she had a few friends there, she was going to focus on her life, and build a career. I wasn't able to convaince her otherwise, because I noticed eagerness while she was talking about what she wants.