Her Guardian (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

73: Beep Beep.

"There's something about your love and affection, ah, ah, ah, ah, I'm going crazy, the thought of you is driving me wild."

Artist: Little Mix.
Song: Beep Beep.

Anastasia POV's:

My heart was beating fast as I made my way towar the bathroom, leaving a very worried William behind me. Breathe was struggling to leave my lungs due to my fast speed, my shaking legs were about to give up, yet I tried to hold myaelf together and not let anything break me down.

I knew we would run into each other, I knew it.

I tried to convince William today to excuse my prescence, he could have gone alone for heaven's sake, I wasn't quite intrested to attend a fashion show, let along his freaking show.

I thought I was completely over him. My love for him was long forgotten. Our memories seemed to fade away from my racing mind, everything we shared became a mere thoughts that cross my terrfying mind once a day, nothing more and nothing less. Nevertheless, there I was, breathlessly running away from the reality to drow into my sillyness of seffishness. All I planned out earlier was gone, everything I thought about forgetting about him wa gone, every single memory of our temporary perfect connection came back, and crushed me down.

"No, shit." I cried loudly as I reached the bathroom. My head was spinning around in circles, making my shaking legs to give up, and make my whole body hit the floor in such a thunder noise. I whimpered loudly, as finally tears rushed down my eyes like wave of an angry ocean.

I just couldn't believe what was happening to me, giving your heart to the wrong person is the most creepy thing ever, being unable to be by the side of your lover was such a turtour to my soul and heart, I was drowning in my own sins, mistakes and fantasies.

I should have never gave in to him, I should have never fallen for him. I should had my distance, and do my job as being a Doll, nothing less, nothing more; however I was thoughtless and idiot back then. The feelings he provided me fooled me, it fogged up my clarity and got me caught in such a nonesense feeling. Those crazy butterflies over my stomache were the reason why he kept crushing my mind back then, those stupid chills he gave me got me hopeless, needing his attention and love.

His green eyes, those goddamn beautiful forest eyes got me under his spill, he controlled my emotions and thoughts without my permission, I was under his magical spill of hia fascinating longs figure the whole time. His fucking good behaviour toward me pulled me inches away from a havoc of loneliness, his charming charistma, his good manners and thoughtfull thoughts made me fall for him, hard.

What was I'm thinking when I gave him my heart back then? How stupid and naïve girl I was to believe that he will protect me, and always be by my side like hw promised. What a childish girl I had back then when I believed him, I gave in to his magical promises. All of him was fascinating, even the words which left his thick lips with such an intention were the death to me back then, every single detail of his excistence controlled my brain.

If I didn't love him at the first place, I wouldn't have accepted his father offer.

If I didn't care about him, I wouldn't care less about what was the best or the worse for him. I loved him with every inch of my existence, I drunk away all his love which made me loose my sanity and accept his father worthless request. I was naïve, so fucking naïve and love fucked up my whole sense.