Embracing Words // Poems

jumping off. /x/

~

I used to be so happy and proud.

and to this day, I'm try to figure out. 

Where it went wrong, where I lost it all.

In the depths of the cold unforgiving ocean.  ~

This yelling and screaming,

This depressing thought, 

I can't take it anymore.

It burns me alive, and kills me inside. ~

I try to fix it all, and resolve the problem, 

but the thing is, I don't know what the problem is.

So I go to square one, and see my one solution.

Leaving, Sleeping, Forever... ~

I start with the basics, with the self harm.

I give myself, cuts and scars.

My friends beg me to stop, but I disregard. 

For the bigger picture is what I thought. ~

No More yelling, no more screaming,

Peaceful sleeping was the best resort.

But something grabs me, someone grabs me.

And holds me back, from continuing any further. ~

As I look to my arms, look in my heart,

Look back behind me, and see the face.

And there he was, holding me back,

from ending it all, from

jumping off. /x/