In Repair

-CHAPTER THREE-

-LOLA'S P.O.V.- 

She looked towards me with sad eyes as all the colour from my face drained.

"We're moving next week and i have talked to your father, he's letting me have full custody but you can still visit in the holidays of course." I could see my vision start to blur and a single tear fell down my cheek and soaked into the pillow i had sitting on my knee. I couldn't breathe. We would be leaving everything and everyone we've ever known and going somewhere completely new.

"You only need to pack your clothes, the house is already fully furnished, so go and start packing." I stood up on shaky legs and forced myself not to cry until i had reached the safety of my room. Once i got inside i broke down and fell to the floor, the carpet scraping my bare knees and the tears coming in rivers down my face.

I was still crying by the time i had started to pack, i decided not to tell anyone i was leaving they wouldn't care anyway, especially not Ben. I put the last of my clothes inside my suitcase and went over to my desk to where my blades were. I pulled up the right hand side sleeve of my oversized sweater and made the first cuts i had ever made on my wrists, it burned more than my legs but it was nice to finally have a small break from my mind.

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The next week came around much too fast. I hadn't been going to school and so far i have gotten not one single text or call from Casey, Alex, Lucy or Natalie to see where i was or if i was okay. I looked over to the white digital clocked perched on top of my bedside table and read the time, 4:30am, I sighed knowing i wouldn't be able to get back to sleep any time soon and decided to get up and get the last of my things ready to go.

I stepped out of the warm shower onto the red fluffy bath mat and grabbed my pyjamas. I looked over towards the slightly fogged mirror seeing my reflection slightly distorted by the fog. Running my fingers over the angry red cuts on my wrist i walked out of the bathroom and got dressed in a cropped white shirt with a grey cropped sweatshirt over the top and grey sweatpants with my high top purple vans. I stepped towards my mirror to start on my makeup that i left out of my luggage and stared at myself, my dull pale blue eyes staring lifelessly back at me. It was almost as if the longer i looked you could see more and more how broken i was.

I quickly finished my makeup and slowly made my way out into the hall and to the car struggling with my luggage but finally ended up sat in the back seat, headphones in my ears and my head against the window.

When we arrived at the airport it was 7:00am, right around the same time that everyone would be getting up to go to school. It was as if the world knew i was thinking about them and my phone buzzed in my hand, i looked down and my eyes landed on a text from Casey telling me how she got into a fight with the others and begging me to go hang out with her at school. I just turned off my phone and started walking towards the plane.

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okay this is really short ik but it's more of a filler chapter soz