Truth Be Told

So close

I cared but you-you now turn your brown bark like eyes away from me.
In my presence you lift your nose, scrunching the skin that covers it's muscles, as if a rotting stench found it's way into your nastrals.
I sighed again pondering of the old days.Trustful smiles and smirks of slyness with hints of mischief. We used to curl up side by side whispering of schemes that would soon be put into action. I also remember the pain and sorrow we both suffered. Sometimes I remember flashes of the agony, the times I wish I could have begged to have been the one being punished, others of the days we were apart and if you were okay.
  However, now it is like I am someone who betrayed you worst then anyone. I cry to myself thinking that I did something to wrong you. I look back and see that no I didn't. I couldn't handle being so Controlled. I had to draw the line, dear sister. You may have been fine with being told how everything was but I just wanted my life, not their's.
I often dream that life was different for you. No heart ache. Just a life we use to share.
But we can't change the past yet we are able to pave our future. I wish for a future with my siblings being the closest  friends I have. I understand you may still feel that I am not following as you want me to but please don't forget I will always be there.