M.V.P ARMY GUIDE TO SENPAI

Senpai & The MVPs

( ´ ▽ ' )ﾉ Hello there~

It's been a while since I've written in this book ಠ_ಠ

But anyway, you all know that my love for all you is great. I cannot express my gratitude enough, truly I am amazed at how much the MVP ARMY has grown in so little time and I honestly wish that I could hug each and every one of you in person and just thank you for your love and support.

It's been a bit rough, I'm currently just trying to figure things out with all my books and in between my studies.

I haven't forgotten about you guys I promise ❤

For those of you who weren't able to join me on Livestream, here's a recap of what I talked about:

1. Updates

This is the main issue right now.

I know that I haven't really updated the major books such as UEL, PB2, F.L, 30 SOD and so on. 

Truth is...

I have major writers block and it's frustrating me.

I truly wish I could update frequently but I've hit a brick wall and I just basically update the books in which I have fresh ideas still. It only makes it worse though because I ignore the fact that I have other ones to update and it's just insane.

But...

I'm going to finish UER WINNER first. Then from there I'll update UEL and once I update at least 4 chapters on that then I'll update PB2 (at least 2  chapters), 30 SOD (2-3 chapters), FL (2 chapters) and basically go from there.

So all I ask is for patience please 🙏

2. Struggles

I've got a lot on my plate rn.

Balancing between studies, family, church and updates is really hard. I know it may not sound like a big deal but a lot has happened to me these past few months and it's really got me thinking about the future.

At first I really just wanted to give up on everything and delete my Wattpad account for good. I was so done with everything and all this pressure I had going on in my personal life that I couldn't handle the thought of going on.

I actually talked about this with 2 of my really wonderful and amazing #1s misshobie & taebabes.

They've helped me through some really dark times in my life and I can honestly say that I'm still on here because they never let me quit.

Just like how everyday my MVPs encourage and inspire me to do my best and give it my all.

Life isn't always fair and it's gonna be a downer at times but just knowing that I endured it makes me feel accomplished. It makes me feel strong and like nothing is truly impossible unless you limit yourself to believe that your dreams can't be achieved.

In all honesty, I felt so lost in my crumbled up life that I even had thoughts of ending life itself.

You all know that I'm always going to be real with you and the reason for this book in general is so that you guys get to know me personally. Everything I write here is 100% me and even though we don't know each other personally I feel like I can talk to you guys this way because we do share a bond even if it seems minimal but the bond is there.

But yes, sadly I had those thoughts. It just got to be too much at one point and I didn't know what to do with myself but I did talk to someone about it. I got scolded and when I really thought about it, it would've been so inconsiderate and selfish of me to end my "pain" to cause others pain.