Stay

••~Helpless~••

**A/N: This chapter has a trigger warning, so I beg of you, if you'll get trigged, you can skip this chapter, it's honestly not important enough for you to put yourself through this. I love you all and I don't want you harming yourself over this depressing chapter.**

I sat in my room for hours crying.

I didn't know how to take this. He hated me, I knew it. I ruined it. I should've just kept my mouth shut. I never should've told him.

He's probably upset. But how could you love a stranger?

I don't know.. I started loving a stranger. I knew he doesn't. He would never love a stranger. I was just there.

He probably had somebody better on the side.

Probably that Hailey chick. She was probably his actual girlfriend..

Maybe I was on the side..

I walked to my bathroom, tears streaming down my face.

I looked in the mirror, makeup ran down my face along with tears.

I went through the cabinets, looking for my friend.

I found my blade, staring at it. I started crying more, sliding down the wall of my bathroom.

I dragged the ragged piece of metal across my skin, hissing in pain, but loving the sensation.

I continued the same pattern, over and over and over again.

I felt my heart break, as I saw blood run down my wrist. I just stared, tears running down my cheeks.

I whispered to myself, "I feel hopeless... I feel helpless."