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//I Need You//

It was almost Halloween and I was really missing Andy. We talked but not a lot. He really like, distanced himself. But maybe he's just busy? I honestly don't know. Maybe he'll answer my text?

Me:
Hey.. It's been awhile.. Are you busy later? Maybe we could go for a walk and talk about everything?

I waited for a reply. I started drawing to distract my thoughts about Andy. All that happened was me drawing his name as a sketch with little hearts around it.
Fuck. Ugh.

I started singing. Love songs. I tried everything and nothing worked. I was too worried he hated me.

But then I heard Andy's text tone go off.

Andy..:
Hey. I'm at a party right now, but maybe later.. Mkay?

Me:
It's fine. I'll just.. Let you go.. Ttyl...

Ugh. I should've known. He's popular and pretty much famous. As if he had time for me. I'm nothing special..

I turned off my phone, logging on my computer, plugging my earbuds.

I pulled up YouTube and played the songs I felt in the mood for. 

"If they knew, if they knew what you do in your room to hide the pain,
I bet they'd change"
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I bet the thought of it, is driving her insane.
One of the worst crimes that you could commit;
And for what? Just for your own selfish benefit.
And now she's thinking, "do I even deserve to live?"
'Cause what you did there is no way she could forgive.
She was so innocent, until that event,
You made an indent, on her presence.
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Today she's turning sixteen
Everyone singing, but she can't seem to smile
They never get past arms length
How could they act like everything is alright?
She's pulling down her long sleeves
To cover all the memories that scars leave
She says, "maybe making me bleed
Will be the answer that could wash the slate clean"
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After an hour of crying I texted Andy.

Me:
I need you.

He messaged back within minutes.

Andy:
I'm coming.

And with that, I waited, still crying.