So today we wrote our exam and in between 2 exams we have an hour and in this hour my friend asked if we could go up to the lockerooms so she could see this guy she likes. Problem is I like him to. I told her a while ago that I don't like him anymore because I knew she likes him and I wanted her to be able to talk to me about it. Its guy number 2. Its hard to see her and him so close and I wish it was me. On Friday night she was with him and another friend and they were at lifestyle. Oh how I wish that was me. They all had such a nice time and if I could swop places with her I would have done it in a heart beat. I told him about this game a while ago and when I was walking today when I saw him the second time, first time I didn't talk to him or hug him or anything( that killed me ), so I was told him I had this game he asked me for here with me and as I was searching for it in my blazer my friend claims that that he did the one thing that makes a girls heart skip a beat. He apparently winked and bite his lip! Aahhhhh wish I saw what he actually did, but the thought is nice. My friend also says that he gives me this look when im not looking, the same look I give him when hes not looking.
Guy number 1 has been flirting with my friend even though he knows she has a boyfriend and she was falling for it. He's smooth got to give him that. I was seriously jealous and she knew. I don't know what to do. We fought for a bit and I think it was just that her boyfriend kept blowing her off everytime she tried to get together with him and she missed the attenetion from him – not in a bad way. Any way her boyfriend sent her this poem that he wrote and shes really confused on what to do and I don't blame her.
Have you ever had your best friend slowly fall for the guy you love? Doesn't only have to be a crush but your best guy friend or brother kinda love. Its so hard because hes like my brother and last time I let him go for one of my friends he got hurt badly and I lost her as a friend and he and I drifted. Its hard... im so protective over him because hes mine and I don't like sharing not that I can stop it, but I cant help but feel a strange wave of jealousy sweep over me when ever she mentions his name or how easy it is to talk to him or how funny he is. I know that's why I feel the way I do... hes my liam... at the same time, I cant stop it because they make eachother happy, and what kinda friend would I be if I stopped that?
Love sucks.
The only guy I could really see me ending up with is... guy number 2. Guy number 3 is not going to last and I know that for a fact hes not anything like me and doesn't like some of the things I like. I know 'they' say opposites attract but not this opposite. Guy 1 is taken soon by my best. Guy 2 remains in my heart. Strong and everyday. In my free time I just day dream of being with him and smile and stare at the floor. When I see him I smile, but just can bring myself to look him in the eyes, to afraid to melt...
What if...
