I believe in the saying- life's a rollercoaster , you can either enjoy the ride or scream the whole way down. So when times are the toughest and all I wanna do is scream, I close my eyes, burry myself in my seat and wait for the next up.
I've had so many friends in my life and I'm so fortunate to have been able to keep most of them but I've lost some people who really meant a lot to me. Personally- someone walking away and forcing me to close that chapter of my life is the hardest thing to do... However the friends I've got in my life show me that sometimes you only need the people who have proven to be there for you through the highs and lows regardless of how high or low. They are the people you want to fight to keep in your life and it's taken me a long time to realize this because I've always been afraid of being alone. Still am- but less so now because I know that I have people in my life that are there for a reason. People that make me smile in my soul and a reason to let it show in my eyes. That's the best kind of smile.
You can't replace people regardless of how many guys you date whether it's guy number 5 or 30. The past hurts but it shapes your character and makes you who you are today which is why you have this beautiful life you live. To love , learn, experience and to leave your mark in someone's life. You need to be honest with yourself and decide if you want to be the one to leave a mark- or a scar. Deep I know, but that's what happens during midnight conversations, you become vulnerable and open up to people you never even expected to meet, maybe you even meet the real you at midnight.
