Love happens (CAMREN Fanfic)

(Chapter Twelve)

"Camila" I whispered.

I felt a sharp pain on my left cheek after the name had left my mouth.

"What the fuck did you just call me?" Lucy asked, Obviously she had heard me or she wouldn't have slapped me. She removed herself off of me and was waiting for my answer, her arms were crossed and she was fuming in anger.

"I-I it's not what it looks like" it's all I could really get out. I had no excuse for calling her Camila and my brain was not thinking of anything other than "we're fucked".

"Oh really? Then what does It look like? You called me fucking CAMILA! You know I don't like her and here you are with me, making out about to fuck and you call me Camila. Do you like her?" Lucy was screaming and my anxiety level was rising with every passing second. I didn't like confrontation unless it was needed and right now I didn't want to deal with this. I had to think of something fast so she could calm down.

"Ok yes, I was thinking about Camila but not because of what you think. She's been having some, problems" I paused for a second and Lucy seemed to be interested and more relaxed so I continued talking "She has problems with her husband okay? So I was worried because he got back today and I don't know I guess I just worry too much about my friends. You know how I am, So I'm sorry I called you Camila it won't happen again. I promise babe." It seemed like a legit excuse, my heart was racing until Lucy finally spoke up again.

"I do know you, I know you love and care too much about everyone. You have a big beautiful heart Lauren but really? Calling me Camila in the middle of our make out session is just not a good feeling" She sat down beside me looking more sad than angry now. I felt bad of the way I was treating her, how could I be so stupid to call her another girl's name.

"I know and I'm sorry. I'll just focus on us from now on okay? I'm all yours" I said and Lucy seemed pleased with my excuse. But, my last words were a lie I wasn't Lucy's at least not anymore. All of my being belonged to Camila and only her.

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It had been two weeks since I saw, talked, kissed or hugged Camila. Ever since Shawn got back he would not let her out of his sight not even for a millisecond, at least that's what Dinah had said when she visited her last week. I kept busy with work and Lucy but it wasn't the same I was missing my other half and Normani and Dinah seemed to catch on to that.

"Are you not going out with us?" Dinah came in to my room, I was laying down in bed since Lucy was out with her family. I was set on spending my weekend trapped in my room netflixin away. "Does it look like I'm going somewhere?" I asked back pointing to my unicorn onesie. "You can come like that, You're like really depressed since Camila hasn't been around." she admitted taking a seat on the edge of my bed.

"I'm not depressed Dinah, I just miss her. She's a great energy to have around but whatever. She's married so she doesn't have time for us." my voice had a little bit of anger in it and I hoped Dinah wouldn't notice, She did. "Are you mad because she's married or because she's taken so you can't be with her?" Her words hit me like a sledgehammer and my mind went blank. I was sure she and Normani knew something but I didn't expect her to be so blunt about it.

"Wh-What are y-you talking about?" I stuttered just like my old childhood days when I had to take speech lessons due to my annoying stuttering. "We know, We can tell by the way you guys are with each other. Love is hard to hide Lauren especially the way you guys look at each other. It's endearing Lo. I just want you to know me and Mani support you guys a hundred and fifty percent." Her words were so honest I couldn't hide it anymore.

"I'm in love with Camila" I finally admitted, not only to Dinah but to myself. I felt a tear fall from my eye and then a stream of them just kept falling. I was so overwhelmed by Dinah's words but I was sad I couldn't be with the only girl I wanted. "I know Lo I know. To be honest I rather her be married to you than to that prick of a husband she has" Dinah was wiping tears off my face as Normani entered the room, She looked surprised to my vulnerability. She had seen me cry probably three times before. I was not the one to break in front of people but this was just too much for me to handle and I had to let go and just allow myself to feel.