Married To A Styles | H.S +UNDER EDITING+

Waiting

I am forced to watch the random cartoons on the telly, to keep from thinking such bad thoughts.

But, it doesn't work. My mind still wanders. It's wondering what's going on back there.

It's wondering when Harry is going to come via the door and tell me everything is all better. Like this was just some twisted dream my mind created.

And then, it's wondering..

What are me and Harry? Are we dating?

Are we just fuck buddy's?

I can't do that to someone. I don't regret what happened earlier, but..

I just wish I had answers before I did it.

I didn't resist. He even asked me and I reassured him to go on.

Ugh. I haven't slept with anyone since him and it's not like other people say.

It feels like I'm a virgin all over again..

No. It wasn't like that. I have too much experience and it just..

No.

When I woke up and he was right beside me, it felt like it was 5 years prior.

Where I wasn't in prison.

Where it was just 5 year old Darcy..

Where we spent everyone's birthday as a family..

The family that used to be..

And then I remember..

He cheated on me.

"Mia!" Someone's voice scares the shit out of me and I jump, turning my head to the direction the voice came from.

"Amber?" I ask, confused. "What are you doing here?"

"Niall and I went to your house and you weren't there.. so we called you, but you didn't pick up. Then we called Harry and he said that you guys were at the ER."

"Well, where's Niall?" I ask, peeking around her.

"He's outside. He should be coming, actually." She says, walking over to me.

"Oh."

"Why are you guys here? What happened?" Niall asks, rushing into the room.

When I see his face, it reminds me of the fight we had the other day. Does Amber know?

"Darcy was running a fever." I simply say. "Hopefully, they'll just give her some prescription and her temperature goes down.."

"Is Harry with her?" Niall asks. I nod. "And you yell at me for not keeping him away from you guys."

I suddenly feel angry. I don't fucking need this right now!

"Maddy, go with Amber." I tell her and she nods as she walks out the room with Amber. "Fucking excuse you? You're such an asshole. Darcy remembers him, I can't tell her lies.

"Besides, it was either let him go in with Darcy or leave him out here with Maddy, who barely knows him!"

"That's not the point!" He growls. "Why was he even at your house? Last time we saw him, he was leaving with you after the concert.."

"That's none of your business!" I say, standing up.

"Oh, don't worry. It'll be all over magazines and everything later.. The whole world will fucking know!"

No..

Shit, I forgot about the paparazzi..

"They won't know what really happened.." I say.

"You'd be surprised of what extent they would go to figure that minor detail out." He says.

"Just go." I shake my head. "You just came here to start shit..

"I'm just waiting for someone to come via those doors." I point to the double doors. "And tell me that my daughter is all right. Not for someone to come through those doors and tell me of my mistakes.."

"Fine. Then I'll wait with you." He huffs, walking across the room and taking a seat in another chair.

I sit back down and can't help but think..

Was it really the wrong thing to do?

To have Harry see his kids again?

But, he was going to go to court..

Maddy walks back in with Amber and a bag of chips in her hand. Maddy comes and sits with me as Amber goes and tries to talk to Niall, who is across the room.

Maddy turns her attention back to the TV and I suddenly feel guilty.

I haven't felt guilty at all since Harry came back into my life. It was fine before him...

But, I also feel guilty about Darcy. That somehow this is my fault, that I could've prevented it.. Prevented her from getting so sick.

It's been nearly an hour and no word from Harry. I would ask Niall if Harry gave an update or just..

Anything..

Anything to let me know that my baby was okay..

I glance over to Maddy before setting my head in my hands, feeling the water works coming on.

Ugh.

Maddy has never seen me cry.. And now is not the time to start stuff.

And Darcy.

The last time Darcy has seen me cry was when I was at court, filing for the divorce.

And she was so young, she barely remembers that.

"Mia?" Harry's voice catches my attention and I try to secretly wipe my tears away before I look to him.

"Is she okay?" I automatically ask, looking up to him, trying not to sniffle.

"Yeah, she's just got the flu. They're gonna give her some antibiotics to take at home and she can be discharged." He smikes, sitting beside me. "Why were you crying?"

I shake my head, glancing to Niall who's staring at me.

"It's nothing." I brush it off. "Can we go see her?" I ask, standing up.

"Yeah, we need to get her discharged." He says, standing up to.

I grab Maddy's hand and follow Harry. Instantly, I hear the two sets of foot steps and swivel around.

"I think it's best that you go, Niall. I don't want you to upset Darcy." I say.

I let go of Maddy's hand, just wrapping my arms around myself.

I feel like bursting into tears again.

Niall and I were so close, I don't know what's making us fight so much lately. Is it me?

The stress on me of having Harry back, is it feeding out to everyone I know?

"What?" He asks. "Mia, come on! Yeah, we've been fighting, but-"

"Darcy just needs her family right now. Her mom and dad, sister.." I glance down to Maddy who's still munching on her chips.

"Okay, then." He looks to Harry, then to Amber. "Whatever, Mia."

And with that, he walks out.