Tattoos •lrh•

update on my life.

Let's talk about something, I always feel so empty and so distant from everyone here at college. I love the experience, but I absolutely feel like I'm here by myself instead of me being here with my friends. I just want to go home and be with my family, but yet I want to be here for an education, but I don't know if I can take it. I just want someone to talk too :(

And it's like it's my birthday tomorrow and I feel like nothing. i don't really care at this point in time about me or about anyone else. I just want to go home and be with my family who genuinely care about me. 

I don't know what to do at this point. I just feel like I have no one with me and I don't know how to continue being here when my own roommate steals all my friends away from me and I don't even get included into things anymore. I'm just lost and all I want to do while writing this is shut my door and cry myself to sleep, but I want too. I don't want to go back in that place, but I feel like at my university, i'm going to be that percent that drops out. 

This is the reason i write in my life, but I feel like this isn't enough for me. I want to be the awesome writer that you expect me to be and i won't stop being the writer that I am, but I feel like I can't do that anymore. My work has become shit and i don't even feel confident updating anymore because it's all just----shit. 

My life is just falling apart at the seems and I can't stop myself from drowning. 

I love you guys soon much and thank you for giving me the best method of getting my frustration out and this isn't a goodbye or a farewell. This is me being a better person for you guys and for myself. I want to be the best author for you guys and make you all happy. 

Promise me that you guys won't leave me like everyone else has??

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