I was making chocolate puddings in the kitchen when Namjoon comes home. I heard his loud sigh when he enters our house. Smiling, I put the puddings into the refrigerator before washing my hands and went out from the kitchen.
Namjoon was sitting on the couch, he has a sad look on his face, and I seriously don't know why. Maybe he's under a lot of pressure since their having their comeback soon. Or maybe Bang Si Hyuk PD-nim scolded him a while ago.
I walked up to him and greeted him warmly, only to get a cold stare and a nod.
"Namjoon, what's wrong? Mind telling me? " I asked. He just shook his head and muttered a 'nothing'.
"Come on, I'm your girlfriend. You can share with me your problems— "
"I fucking said nothing's wrong! Can't you understand?! " Namjoon roared. The sudden outburst scared me, tears welling up in my eyes.
I left the house, ignoring Namjoon shouting my name. I walked to the park nearby our house and sat by the lake, watching the color of the water turned yellow and orange as the sun set.
I picked up a pebble and threw it into the lake, pouting as I hugged my knees. This place is full of our memories. We used to hang out a lot at here, feeding the ducks and the fish with breads, or even have a small picnic by this lake.
Namjoon even asked me out here back then. He was a stuttering mess at that time. I'm not surprised since I've already discovered his Google Search history. Other than pornsites, I saw him searched various WikiHow like How to make your best friend falls in love with you or How to confess to your crush. Well, I'm pretty sure I'm his crush since he constantly flirts with me and I'm his only best friend.
I couldn't help but smile as I thought back when Namjoon accidentally tripped over a stone and fell into the lake. He even got a fever right after that, and I took care of him for the whole week.
Sadly, Namjoon has changed a lot lately. He's not that talkative and cheerful like usual, he's been emotional and depressed lately. I'm very worried about him. I wanted him to share his problems with me, so maybe I can give him a shoulder to lean on. Maybe I can also help him to solve his problems together.
"I miss the old you. " I mumbled to myself.
The sky is getting darker and darker, the lamp post in the park lit up, giving brightness for us. It's time to go home, but how do I face Namjoon? It's really awkward..
I slowly pushed open the door and found Namjoon was fast asleep on the couch. Sighing in relief, I closed the door as quiet as possible, but I accidentally caused a loud sound when I close it, which woken Namjoon up.
"Fuck. " I cursed.
He bolted up, his bloodshot eyes are staring at my swollen ones. Has he been crying? Namjoon sat at the side on the couch, still staring at me.
I attempted to walk pass him, but he embraced me tightly.
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"I'm sorry, baby. I shouldn't have yell at you like that. " he apologized with sincerity.
I cried immediately, wrapping my arms around his neck and stroked his hair.
"I love you, Namjoon. I just thought that you'll feel better if you tell me your problems. I never wanted to irritate you— "
"Shh. " he placed his finger on my lips, "It's not your fault. It's mine. I'm just... Really stressed out lately. "
Smiling, I pecked his lips and he pouted, asking for more kisses.
"I heard that kissing can relieve stress. Should we try it out? " Namjoon teased, making me roll my eyes. I flicked his forehead, causing him to wince in pain.
"Babe ~! " he whined, his arms were still around my waist, "Just one more kiss, please. "
"Fine fine. " I gave in and giggled, leaning down to kiss him on the lips gingerly.
While kissing, Namjoon tried to insert his tongue into my mouth. I pulled off immediately and scoffed in disbelief.
"Yah, you byuntae. "
"What? " he shrugged and put on an innocent face, "It's not like we never tongue kiss before. "
"Enough. " I said in embarrassment, "Oh, right. Do you want some pudding? I made some of them just now— "
"Oh, about that.. I k-kinda ate.. All of them? " Namjoon said nervously.
