Okay so this is extremly long (2509 words !!1) and it's just everything that made me think of school and I wrote it only bc it helps me to calm down about school lmao so you dont need to read this is super annoying
As I'm writing this, school is gonna be starting in 9 days. 9 fucking days. LIKE ???? WHERE DID THE SUMMER GO ???????
Okay so I actually enjoy school. Like when I'm here and settled and I'm with my friends everything's fine, it's fun, the classes are interisting, the teachers are not that big of assholes and yeah just fine
But this year
This fucking year
This dreadful fucking year
11th grade, junior year, year 11, 1st grade (thats how we call it in france dont ask), however you fucking call it
This year
Is the beggining
Of my way
To
Fucking
Death
Like think about it this year I'm taking my french, science and TPE (supervises personal work) baccalaureate exams + english exams to apply to uni
Im not even that good at english
Next year, I'll have all of my other subjects baccalaureate and I have to get something better than Good at it my fucking brother had a Good and I have to show who's boss,, I'll also have to apply to uni
Then uni, 4 years long and I think imma do a master after that
Then work your whole life
Until u retire and do nothing
Then you fucking die
What is the purpose of life
Anyway
I am so fucking stressed out about school I want to fucking die and you know what is the only way to calm myself down
The only way
The only fucking way
The sole and only way
To calm me down about school
Is to think and talk and do stuff about school,, all day, everyday
But problem : my friends who hate school dont want to hear about it and I have done every fucking thing I could do
I have planned my ouftits for the first week of school
I have created a sleeping schedule I actually follow
I learned in advance all of the history content of next year
I arranged all of my school supplies
I wrote a letter to the company that sells my planner to congratulate them over having such great planner
I sharpened all of my pencils
I have a countdown where I tick of every day that pass and gets me closer to school