Depressive Chaos

Chapter 10

I'm very excited with where this story is gonna go

Harry's POV

What did I just witness? I know what I saw. I wish I didn't because not I can't get that image out of my head. Louis' beautiful face, that face of lust that I wish I was the cause of. His eyes were closed and his lovely mouth parted slightly. I wanted to hear him say my name, to call out for me and ask me to be one with him. I hear the shower cut on and music start playing. His voice. It's something that could bring a tear to my eye in a moment because it has been so long since I've heard him sing with such passion.

Just as I begin to pull my shirt over my head I have a text. Looking down I see it's exactly who I hoped it wouldn't be.. Clarissa.

Clarissa: Hey! I need you to come over I've got plans for our next outing.

And for once I actually have a genuine excuse.

Me: I'm sorry I'm going to be with the boys today getting ready at the venue and practicing. It's gonna take all day. Can you plan it?

Relief pours through my body. I successfully have one day without having to worry about her. Suddenly I remember that face again. I could die happy if I could just see him like that one more time beneath me, if I could hear him tell me that he loves me. How can I tell him? There has to be some way that I can just tell him everything. He will hate me, I don't think he's understand as much as I want him to.

The shower turns off in the bathroom and I hear the shower curtain open. My heart begins to race, because for a second I forgot about everything, feeling so at home in this house and in this bed at Princess Park. Next the music cuts off and the door opens and I see Louis with only a towel wrapped around his waist. We both blush and I apologize, "I'm really sorry." He doesn't seem too fazed. "Nothing you haven't already seen." That's true. I've memorized every inch of his body like a fantastic work of art. "I'm going to get breakfast, can we just hang out for a bit? It will help my nerves about tonight." I ask nervously and he nods. I take that as a yes.

I sit on the living room couch and open a delivery service app to have food from a nearby cafe that we both love delivered. I send in the order and turn on the TV. What's playing is a movie I remember seeing in theatres with Lou. It was The Maze Runner. That was such a lovely day. It was the first night we confessed our feelings for each other, although we had been flirtatious and lovey towards each other practically from the day we met.

Louis walks out of the room and he is wearing a different pair of sweatpants and a black T shirt. The only reason I don't feel gross for not taking a shower is because I took one last night. There's a knock at the door, that was fast. He sits down on the couch next to me, about a foot apart. I get up and answer the door and thank the man who brought us our food and gave him a tip. I set the iced chai teas and breakfast sandwiches down. Louis looks pretty happy to see food although it doesn't seem like he's eaten a good meal in a while.

"Thank you." He says sweetly and it makes me want to kiss him on the forehead and tell him I'd do anything for him, but I don't. "Of course." I instead say and take a sip of my tea. He begins to eat so quickly, as though he hasn't eaten in years. I smile at this and take a bite into my sandwich. "Are you ready for tonight?" I say after swallowing. He looks at me worriedly, "Not really to be honest." "Yea me neither." I agree, and then continue to eat quietly.

Truthfully I just want to enjoy these moments we have because in just a few hours I'll be at the venue getting ready for a big night. Louis finished half of the sandwich and then takes a big gulp of his tea, " I have to get my hair trimmed. Management is saying it's too long at the moment." "Ahh, to be honest Lou, I think it looks good." He looks embarrassed at my terms of affection. I've finished my food so I just sit back and sigh.

"Hey Harry?" I look at him and smirk, "Hm?" I hum as an answer. "Why are you here?" This throws me off guard, because it's a valid question but not one I was fully prepared to answer. "I miss having you in my life and I hope that we can move on and be friends again?" Louis is looking down at the ground. "I'm still tired." He mumbles. "Well what time is your appointment Lou?" He almost smiles when I call him by his nickname. "It's at 4, an hour before we have to be dressed and at the venue, ready to rehearse."

Looking down at the clock, I see that it's only 10:30. I pull the blanket from where is was laying on the couch and covered both of our laps. In one swift motion I scoop him by his waist on top of me so that he is between my legs, with his head on my chest. He doesn't protest thankfully, and I set an alarm and we sleep like this. Like we were lovers again and having him on me feels like I am whole again. I could lay here forever and nothing could ever make me leave. Except that Clarissa knows about what I've done. She can easily ruin my life and my mother's life.