My Soulmate(boyxboy)

Chapter 5 Revelations

More fun writing another chapter YAY:P I'll start bolding things now btw:P

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*Jake's POV*

Nothing. Absolute nothingness going through my head. I felt nothing, I saw nothing, I heard nothing. It was painful writing my feelings down for the one person still alive that I felt I loved but now, I felt nothing as I walked to my favorite spot away from society. There was this little forest at the edge of town that had an amazing view of a sparkly river when you got to a clearing on a cliff. It was perfect for clearing my head or crying my heart out when I had been hurt so I decided it would be the place I'd die.

As I got to the clearing, many emotions came rushing to my head. The emotions of me leaving Jeff, the emotions this place reminded me of, the emotions of sadness and pain that had never left my life. Tears started flowing from my eyes as I looked back on my life; the hardships and pain I'd gone through to get this far all to be destroyed by the heartless monster I called my father. He made me do this because if I didn't, he'd rape me then kill me along with Jeff. I couldn't do that to him. He honestly made me feel like I had found the love of my life. I really hope he finds his true soul mate and doesn't dwell on me too much. I also really hope he doesn't just forget me and hate me for doing this. I hope he gets my message and understands everything that he needs to.

As I looked out onto the river, a tiny part of me hoped. Hoped that Jeff would come to my rescue and tell me not to jump. Tell me that no matter what he'd love me. Tell me he'd rather die with me than let me kill myself. But the hope soon died as I thought that he'd never know where'd I gone to kill myself. He was new to this place and would never know of the clearing here. Not many people did thankfully. As far as he'd know, I was gonna jump off a building or run into traffic. He'd never come here. Still... The thought of him coming through the clearing crying for me to be ok, for me to not have jumped yet, for him to have come on time was nice as a final thought.

Just as I was about to jump, a thought came to at least check for a minute to see if he would come, as though he somehow knew I'd be here, as if I was his real soul mate and he'd know exactly where I was when I needed him. Following those wishes, I decided to wait. Wait for something miraculous to happen or nothing to happen. Just wait. Wait and wait and wait. Though after a while the waiting wasn't enough. I had to be able to see too. That's when I turned around with the smallest amount of hope inside me. Hope he'd be there. Hope he'd come to get me. Hope for love...

My hope exploded. When I turned around, I saw him standing there with tears in his eyes, using those tear-filled eyes to plead with me to get away from the edge. He looked worried but relieved at me not having jumped yet. As my hope was coursing through me, making me want to stay, he spoke.

"Jacob, Baby please don't do this. There's too much to live for. Your life is special and you shouldn't just throw it away like this. Please don't go. If you don't want to live for you, then live for me. I love you with all my heart, I know it, and I can't live without you. I need you in my life. Please don't leave me. If you're worried about your father, then its ok because I can handle anything at all. I promise just don't leave me. Give me time to explain things, please. I need you and I... I just can't be without you."

He started moving towards me hesitantly trying to not spook me and make me stumble backwards because I was dangerously close to the edge. His eyes kept pleading with me and as I stared into his perfect light brown eyes, I saw a glint of dark grey get bigger then smaller. Mystified by his eyes I stayed silent for a while. He stopped advancing waiting for me to answer him so... I did.

"J-Jeff, it's nice that you came to try to stop me. Really lovely in fact. But I made up my mind and I plan to go through with this. I don't want to put you through any harm my dad might cause you, please understand that."