Inflowing Tide (#Wattys2016)

(19) Better Days

He entered my room and I motioned for him to sit beside me on the bed.

"Wow, classical music? You haven't changed one bit." He said and stroked my leg. What the hell?

"What do you want, Tony?" I said frustratingly. He blinked as if he expected it.

"I miss my friend, okay? I hate it when we aren't speaking." I pulled my hair to one side and tied it. I got up from the bed and stood before him.

"Oh, we aren't speaking, I wonder why!" He looked ahead of me and ignored my sarcasm.

"You came here to speak and now you're sitting there as if I'm speaking another language." All my emotions about him kissing me resurfaced and it pissed me off.

"Don't be an asshole, Savannah." He seemed as if he was deep in thought.

I hissed and shook my head then said "Stop acting so pathetic, T."

We stares at each other for a few moments then I decided I needed to remind him what he did.

"You forced yourself onto me, Tony." I whispered in a much more relaxed tone.

"Savy...I didnt mean for it to come off that way. I'm sorry." He paused then turned away from me and stared ahead of him.

"I just saw you with him...and it...it drove me insane that he got who I wanted. Its as if he takes everything from my life, a father, a family...you."

Now he wanted me to feel guilt because he kissed me, fucking amazing.

"I accept your apology and I'll forgot all that happened but, don't put the weight of your hatred towards him on my shoulders."

He stood before me as I sat on the bed and cupped my cheek with his hand.

"Savannah, I'm in love with you."

I moved my face from his reach and slid from the bed to stand before him. Okay, I didn't think this through his height was intimidating to mine.

"Don't say that-" I looked up into his eyes.

"Sav-"

He paused when there was a loud gasp at the door. I turned and saw Josie standing in the doorway, she looked at either of us then ran away.

"Josie!" I called and made my way to the door. Tony gripped my arm and pulled me back to him.

"I don't want to be casual with you, Savy. I don't understand my feelings for you but, all these mixed emotions...I feel them for you."

I looked down at his hand then to his eyes. All I could think about was what my sister just heard and how she reacted to it.

"It would be best if you leave, Tony."

******

I hurried downstairs to Josie's room, her door was locked.

"Josie? Please open." I repeatedly knocked on the door.

"Go away, I legally disown you as you my sister. " I could tell she was crying. I knew she wouldn't open the door so, I decided to explain.

"He pursued me. Just let me in, please. Besides, you'd never actually disown me. God help me, Josie. I'll break this door down." I was surprised when the door swung open.

"You have 5 seconds." She barked as she crossed her arms. I sighed out loud then said,

"He tried kissing me at Lola's party and I haven't spoken to him since. I chose you, okay. I knew anything with him that wasn't friendship, would hurt you. And I am not about to choose him over you." I wrapped her in a hug.

"So much has happened today, let's go to bed...okay?" she nodded.

"Should I sleep here?" I questioned.

"Okay, no. Got to your room, don't abuse this opportunity." I giggled at her

"Thank God! Love you, Angel girl." She narrowed her eyes.

"Never stopped loving you, cunt." I smiled at her then left the room.

******

I walked over to the front door and it seemed Tony has left. I could hear mom speaking in the living room; I strolled inside and we locked eyes. She seemed pissed...As she should be. She ended the call and turned her attention to me.

She was working at home, again. She had her laptop on pillows beside her and a few documents lying on the sofa.

Either my mother is a workaholic or her boss is shitty...he is shitty.

"Mom, can I speak to you?" she sarcastically looked at me. I sat down on the sofa beside her.

"I'm really sorry about today; I don't want to go to bed with the thought that we fought...or that you're angry." She sent me a slight smile then stroked my arm.

"Aw, Savy. How could I stay angry at my baby girl?" She shifted closer and wrapped her arms around me.

"Today made me realize how much my relationship with daddy affected you. Still affecting you." She planted a kiss on my head as she stroked my hair.

"Baby, look. I'll never do anything to put you and Josie in danger, again." I nodded my head prompting her to continue.

"I understand where you're coming from; do you have your dad's phone number?" I nodded my head as she released me and I sat up.

"Send it to me, okay? I am willing to hear him out, let's try and come to come agreement." she mumbled.

"Wait, mom. Are you sure? It wont like...be bad for your sanity?" She shrugged and I could see the uncertainty in her eyes.

"I'm only doing this because i want you to be happy. Besides, I won't know if I don't try, Sav." I planted a kiss on her forehead

"I love you, mom." She smiled sweetly.

"I know." She whispered and winked at me. I hurried upstairs to my bedroom.

I lied down then struggled to get a comfortable position to lie in.

Shamefully, I gave in to my thoughts that I've been trying to cage.I failed miserably to keep Gabriel from my mind.

Was I in the right mind frame when I replied to his text messages? I am attracted to him, that's no secret. But, he was dangerous...I just have a feeling in my gut about it.

I wasn't even sure if I could trust him but...my feelings were messing with me. He had me forgiving him without him having to ask for, that spoke volumes.

But, it should be volumes I want to hear another day. I went to bed with one last thought;

Tomorrow will be a better day.